Should be my bed time but...

I know it is supposed to be my bed time now. Furthermore, I should be getting enough of rest in order to prepare myself for the final exam on tomorrow. However, I am suffering from insomnia right at this moment. Besides blog-ing it out, what more better could I do, if I am not covering myself under the cold blanket and shedding out tears.

Things seems to be coming and going at the wrong timing. It happened in such a sudden. Fixed-line had been kept ringing non-stop for the day, my sixth sense told me something was not right. And true enough, it just turned out to what we were predicting. Within a few hours, the ring of death has taken Him away from us. Someone whom I respected the most had just departed, to somewhere which is still, an unknown to us.

Apologizing and please do forgive me for unable to turn up, paying You the very last respect although I wished that I can be there. May Your soul do rest in peace. You will forever be remembered, deeply in our heart.

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Appreciation

I'd like to dedicate this to whom who has been part of my life

Thanking you for making my life brighter and colorful
An appreciation spilled out from the deepest of my sincere heart


Appreciate

My Parents
Who brought me to this beautiful world
I am, appreciating them for the chance given
To be standing here, sight seeing the Mother Nature

My Brother
Who has been accompanying me since the day I was born
I am, appreciating him for the kindness and warmth
To be sitting right beside, giving advices and courage

My Friends
Who has been mixing around, playing with me
I am, appreciating them for being part of my life
To be noted down for my nostalgic growth

My Soul
Who plays an essential role as my faithful listener
I am, appreciating her for the willingness and patience
To be lying down, listening to my booby bedtime stories


No matter how much you liked or loathed on something
Try to...Appreciate it
Things should not be taking as for granted
Limit in one's self has the boundaries
Once crossed
Oops!
Sorry, no more second try
That is why we are here
Learning the word - Appreciate


PS: Egoistic can be either positive or negative
My advice is, use it wisely
Otherwise, it will end up hurting yourself and friends around you

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RIP James

He's the great guy
He's a friendly guy
He's always optimistic
He's always cherish
He's good at expressing himself through blog

Nothing much to be written
Here The news of him.
The incident was taken place at 5:30pm where the three students from UTAR were drowned after they were swept away by strong current at the Batu Berangkai waterfalls yesterday.
Hardly to believe that he was the one of them.

A freezing blog that will left unwritten - James Khor
Do rest in peace.
Forever be remembered.

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A stage

Frankly speaking, in order to stand on the stage, presenting for any event or any kind of activity is not an easy job nor a difficult task. What more if you are standing in front of a crowd? Or should I say it, in other words, in a complex? *shivering*

Well, first thing first, you should have the confidence, I mean in you yourself. Once you are confidence enough, anything spoken out by you or any action done by you shall be summarize in the one, and the only word - Beautiful. Yes, no doubt, Beautiful. A friend told me of it, "Be more confidence, believing in yourself, and act towards what do you think it is right, needless to ask more about it, (just like the slogan of Nike - Just Do It!)."

Before hand, I seemed to be the one who is lacking of confidence in myself. Somehow, soon after I got convinced by a few people. I am now, very thankful to my Leo Club President and Vice President, absolutely I'd like to thank to the Adviser Lion May, for suggesting and electing me to be the MC (Master of Ceremony) for their event, "Think Green, Be Green". Of course, not to forget my partner, Leo SP, too. *winks* Thanking you people for giving me such a great learning opportunity, providing me ways of direction, distinct effective training, endless supportive and encouragements, and last but most importantly, connecting me one step nearer towards my self-assured.


Although it is common to experience a tied-tongue on a stage when you are nervous; but, I still, took a deep breathe before I went on to the stage, and finally, I managed to conquer my fear without showing it through my face, and started my hosting with my partner confidently. (Sorry that I mentioned a few words wrongly in the beginning)

Fellow friends, I might not be performing well for the past event nor up to the professional level, but somehow, I had collected my courage and braveness, and gave it a try! I'm willing to learn and absorb as much as I can, and special thanks to Akira, for being the instructor, who has been pumping in endless inputs (of course a positive suggestions) and has been leading me to the right path for carrying things out. Arigatou gozaimasu!

For the compliments which I had received from the Lions after the event, I shall keep it deep inside my heart, and I will perceive it as a power to motivate me in the future! Roar!!!

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Artist of the Month - Yolanda Adams

For this month, allow me to introduce 1 song which motivates and inspires me whenever I'm lost.

I have to express my greatest appreciation to my dear friend, Mun, because she randomly bluetooth this song into my cellphone. Thanks! *huggies*

Yolanda Adams - Never Give Up



Here are parts of my picks from her lyrics, for full length, click! here

Visions that can change the world
Trapped inside an ordinary girl
She looks just like me
To afraid to dream out loud
To fulfill your life's purpose
You've gotta answer when you're called
So don't be afraid to face the world
Against all odds
So, keep the dream alive don't let it die
If something deep inside keeps inspiring you to try
Don't stop
And never give up; don't ever give up on you...

An inspiring song, meaningful lyrics.
You shall give it a play, once, at least once and I bet you will be falling in love with her.
Here! If you wished to play this song. Enjoy!

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Bestie's 20th Birthday

26th of October 2009

That was a meaningful date. It was my bestie's birthday! Happy Birthday, Fion!!!
There were seven of us, who shared the birthday present among us and celebrated with her in the college cafeteria.

Wait no more, let the photos speak for the rest.

That's her present, look at the birthday card, they're lovely aren't they?

At first, we set a prank on her by just giving her a small piece of birthday wishing card in the class. "Sorry Fion, we had a hectic month and sorry again for neglecting you, we did not prepare anything but...but just this small card, hopefully you'd like it, Happy Birthday!" I said to her. Guess what? She duly nodded her head, and thanked us. (I knew she wasn't in the celebration mood, the body was not working well for the day)

After our class, me and Amely tip-toe to the cafeteria. Intelligently, Amely hid the huge box behind her. Soon after the seven of us gathered at the cafe, we surprised her with the present which had prepared earlier. I guess she was too excited to receive such an extra large size of present.
Here she goes, she's curious enough to have a peep into the hidden stuff in the bear-themed box.





(Due to certain circumstances, I have to grab 2 pictures from Fion's blog)
Here you go, the bear which trapped in the box for days, and now, she (Fion named her after Diploma) finally meets her owner, Fion. =)

May all your wishes come true, birthday girl!

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Smart Nite 2009

Let me bring your attention to the successfully organized Smart Nite which held on 25 October 2009 at E&O Hotel.

I was invited to the so-called prom night a.k.a. form 5 graduation night.
Coming up are some sharing which I managed to snap but, but...but using the camera of my cell phone. Sorry for the low-quality of 3.2 mega pixels although it is a cyber-shot camera. However, the quality has decreased after I made a zoom, zoom, and zoom in. Frankly speaking, there's a reason behind that, I was arranged to be seated in the very last table, hence, I have no choices but to keep zooming it. *Sigh*

Pass ticket for Smart Nite 2009. (For staff, just like me, is a free entry, hooray!)

This is the overall stage design for Smart Nite 2009.

Performance by primary students - "I have a dream".

The performance of "Vivacious Vanessa" - which is one of the sponsors for the night.
Awesome! Look at the models, there are form 3 students. (Sorry for the quality)

Oops! Forget to mention about the food served in E&O Hotel.
Look at this, the food are delicious and delightful. Worth it!!
(But too sad they did not serve oysters and barbecue stuff)

That's me! What happened to my hair? Don't worry, I did a temporary DIY perm by myself. *Hehe* Thanks to the tools which I borrowed from my friend.

Congratulations to Be Smart Learning center for the successful and wonderful night.
Last but most importantly which I should not miss it out, credits to my employer - Mr. Eddie
*winks*

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Ain't Perfect for The Ugly Truth

How do you define perfect in your dictionary? In mine, Perfect means something which is complete, excellent, and delightful in all perspective in a person or a task.
However, there is no perfect guy/girl in our own point of view as we tend to judge others before ourselves.
Realizing weaknesses walks along hand-in-hand with strengths as well. We observed, we analyzed, we thought, and last but most importantly we will judge. That's how the judging process works.

One's characteristic is usually shaped and molded from their family background since they were a small little girl/boy. It can be viewed as their unique culture which is practiced daily, every hours, every minutes and every seconds. When two people is seeing each other, they start to alter their own lifestyle (which have been practicing for years), in order to suit their the other half, I'm sure each and everyone of you will surely be going through this stage (probably you're not, but it's just a matter of time), which I used to name it after "stage of falling in love".

That's what I can conclude with the quote of don't judge a book by its cover.
It can be a nicely wrapped, creatively decorated chocolate but with a bitter taste; or vice versa.
Judge it or love it, it is in your hand.

-If you judge people, you have no time to love them-
-By Mother Teresa-

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What is life about?

Apologize came before words, sorry for neglected you, my blog for a certain period of time.
"Busy, busy and busy life" was what I used to uttered to my friends whenever they came across asking, "Hey girl, how're you doing?"

In fact, I have been busy for nothing, nothing!
My mind wondered around and soulless all the time.
At times, "What is life about?" have been keep popping up in my mind.
"What are human being after for?" is one of my booby thought.
Money? Love?
Friendship? Family?

My Life
I want to live my life to the fullest, can't I?
I want to be a happy soul, can't I?
I just want to be happy all the time, can't I?
I desire a life with no worries, possible?
I wish to meet people around with my poker face, am I capable to?
I love seeing people around me smiling everyday, it's hard isn't it?

My Study
I wanted to concentrate on my study, but ended up I'm loitering around, spending my leisure time hanging on useless stuff.
I promised myself no more last-minute work, in the end?
I kept telling myself, "Start your revision now!", but.. but piles of events are coming one after one, what shall I do?
Tons of assignments is pushing me kinda hard, where my laziness kept procrastinate it almost to the due date, I loathe myself for being such a way.

My Family
No doubt that recently I spent a lesser time being with you all, I'm sorry.
Turning a cold shoulder towards me ain't a good solution, too, ain't it?
It drives me nuts whenever you tried to bear all the sufferings and pressure on your tiny shoulder but in fact, those additional is actually none of your business, stop worrying over that alright?
Stop pretending that there seems to be many worries floating on your mind.
Stop letting your mind leads you around, and please, please avoid turning a deaf ear over a conversation. It hurts!

My Society
"Oh wow! Awesome, your calender is always fully reserved! Lists of appointment awaits you!"
Joining too many clubs and society is a way of being healthy, ain't it?
However, there comes the consequences as well, pressure... pressure and pressure keep pushing me up to the highest boiling point. I can hardly stand it anymore.

My Job
The working time isn't match with mine, either way.
Stop thinking about the little sum of wages, I told myself, and pushed myself hard whenever my alarm knocks me for working time.

My Leisure Time
I enjoyed being with you.
But I can't, for tons of tons of reasons.
I wanna be with you.
But I can't, again, due to several reasons.
I wanna love you.
But I can't, freedom loves me more than I do.
Being cold and being emotional, that's me.
Preferable to be left alone, that's me.
Wanting to travel down the road by myself, that's me.
Wishing to gain more conscious, slap me and wake me up please.
I'm sorry for everything, whichever done or undone, forgive me.
Since the day we met, I'm no longer being myself, not anymore.
I've changed, I've transformed, neither to the positive nor to the negative side.
I was lost, for the sake of searching back the real me.

What is life for??
Are we study hard duly in obtaining a piece of certificate? What next?
Are we working hard in order to get a stable financial support? What next?
Are we mixing around in order to rapport a good relationship?
Are we living for the purpose of living?

Having a hectic life too??
Hitting a pause, slow down your step, lay back and starting thinking of what you want and wish to achieve.
At times, we tend to lost ourselves after doing routines task.
Are you tired? Are you lost, too?

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A Sagittarius Girl

Traditional

Sagittarius Traits

Optimistic and freedom-loving
Jovial and good-humored
Honest and straightforward
Intellectual and philosophical

On the dark side....
Blindly optimistic and careless
Irresponsible and superficial
Tactless and restless

Sagittarius About Your Sign...

Sagittarians have a positive outlook on life, are full of enterprise, energy, versatility, adventurousness and eagerness to extend experience beyond the physically familiar. They enjoy traveling and exploration, the more so because their minds are constantly open to new dimensions of thought. They are basically ambitious and optimistic, and continue to be so even when their hopes are dashed. Their strongly idealistic natures can also suffer many disappointments without being affected. They are honorable, honest, trustworthy, truthful, generous and sincere, with a passion for justice. They are usually on the side of the underdog in society they will fight for any cause they believe to be just, and are prepared to be rebellious. They balance loyalty with independence.

Sagittarians are ardent, sincere and straightforward in love, normally conventional and in control of their sexual natures. Yet if thwarted, they may easily allow their failure to embitter their whole lives or they may revenge themselves upon the opposite sex by becoming cynically promiscuous. They are more apt then the average to make an uncongenial alliance.
If their marriages are successful, they will be faithful spouses and indulgent parents; but their innate restlessness will inspire them to use even the most satisfying ménage as a base from which to set out on their travels. They need to fell free and are often faced with the choice of allowing their careers to take over their lives at the expense of the love of their spouse and family. Sagittarian women are the counterparts of their men; even if they have no career to rival their love, they find it difficult to express affection and may run the risk of being thought frigid.

In other personal relationships they are reliable, seldom betraying any trust given to them. They can, however, be impulsively angry and both male and female Sagittarians know how to be outspoken and exactly what expressions will hurt their adversaries most. On the other hand they are magnanimous in forgiving offenses and are responsible when looking after the elderly in the family.

The vices to which Sagittarians are prone are anger they tend to flare up over trifles; impatience - they want to rush every new project through immediately and demand too much of colleagues who cannot work at the pace they require; and scorn of the inadequacies of others while expecting fulsome recognition of their own efforts. They may in one sense deserve recognition, because in completing a major project they will sacrifice their health and family relationships; in their family's eyes they may merit condemnation.

They can be exacting, domineering and inconsiderate in the work place; and boastful, vulgar and extravagant in their private lives. Their restlessness, if excessive, can jeopardize more than their own stability. some Sagittarians risk becoming playboys, wasting their lives away in frivolous pursuits. Others can develop a moralizing, religious fanaticism or else turn into hypocrites, their inner prudishness disguised by an outward appearance of joviality. Another side of the religiosity which is a danger in Sagittarians is superstition.

LIKES
* Traveling
* Getting to the heart of the matter
* Freedom
* Laws and meanings
* The general 'feel' of things

DISLIKES
* Off the wall theories
* Being tied down domestically
* Being constrained
* Cooling your heels
* Bothered with details

The color of choice for Sagittarius is RICH PURPLE

Source : Sagittarius

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Sharings

Everything happens for a reason. I'm still, in the progress of learning how to overcome it.
What had done is done, nothing more but keep on walking down the long-way obstacles.
Learning how to brilliantly use my senses to see, listen, taste, smell and sense.
Well, I am a way in the alert and alarmed situation. Thanks, Buddha!!

No Pain No Gain… Accept the Pain, Future will be Fruitful…
Don't feel the work you are doing is pain, because there will be always a reason for that pain or work.
So face the pain, for the pain you face, there will be definitely happiness a head.

Dearest Daddy & Mummy,
Please do, please hug me and hold me tight right now, preventing me from falling into a deep loophole, again.
Cuddle me as if a 3-year-old little girl, teach me and show me the correct direction like you always did.
Don't left behind the immature girl alone, whining and surfing for the path by herself helplessly.
Loving dad & mom I pledge, always, forever and ever!

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Introducing the Artist of the Week - Jim Brickman

Jim Brickman - has revolutionized the sound of solo piano with his pop-style instrumentals and star studded vocal collaborations.

Introducing one of his album - Piano & Friends. Normal Price RM 39.98 but you can grab it in any popular bookstores (only in Malaysia) with the T&C applied, only for RM 29.90!!

Jim's best-known compositions include the chart-toppers
“Valentine,”
“The Gift,”
“Love of My Life,”
“Simple Things”
“Peace”,
and
"Partners in Crime."

Visit here! (The official website of Jim Brickman)
or
Click here! (Jim Brickman's biography)

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Bleeding Love-Leona Lewis; Sad Promises-Davichi

I'm guilty (Guilty - Blue)

You're the kinda guy, a girl finds in a blue moon (Ain't No Other Man - Christina Aguilera)
I see the sparkle of million flashlights (Touch My Hand - David Archuleta)
But the one that's shinning out so bright (Touch My Hand - David Archuleta)
Is the one right where you are (Touch My Hand - David Archuleta)
Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven (Shane Ward - No Promises)
With you by my side I will fight and defend (Keep Holding On - Avril Lavinge)

No matter what I do (Dilemma - Nelly)
I'm longing, for words to describe how I'm feeling (A Twist In My Story - Secondhand Serenade)
I can't speak I'm starring at perfection (Stranger - Secondhand Serenade)
All I think about is you (Dilemma - Nelly)
Lying here with you (I Could Not Ask For More - Edwin Mccain)
Listening to the rain (I Could Not Ask For More - Edwin Mccain)
Smilin just to see The smile upon your face (I Could Not Ask For More - Edwin Mccain)

For the very first time with you My heart melted to the ground (Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis)
And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town (You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift)
I'm confident But I can't pretend I wasn't terrified to meet you (Stranger - Secondhand Serenade)
I knew you could see right through me (Stranger - Secondhand Serenade)
I'm counting the seconds until you break the silence (A Twist In My Story - Secondhand Serenade)
I said Te Amo, wouldn't somebody tell me what she said (Te Amo - Rihanna)
Think it means I love you (Te Amo - Rihanna)
All the love we made can never be erased (Never Be Replaced - 1st Lady)

"I think of you and I'm strong
And I know I can go on
It's like you set me free When life gets the best of me
I just think of you” (Think of you - Tata Young)
Ain't no other man it's true (Ain't No Other Man - Christina Aguilera)
Ain't no other man but you (Ain't No Other Man - Christina Aguilera)

We'd never have to wonder if We missed out on each other now (Realize - Colbie Caillat)
Just, stay strong (Keep Holding On - Avril Lavinge)
For the good times through the bad times (Think Of You - Tata Young)
I just think of you (Think Of You - Tata Young)

“Just another lesson to be learned
Gotta move on and not lose faith
Just another obstacle to take
Live my life before it gets too late
I won't give up I won't stay down
This is what life's worth living for
I still believe in love
I'm holding the warmth of your lips It feels like the time we first kissed
When all of the stars lined up for us” (Still Believe in Love - Jenny Hyun)

There's only one thing to do Three words for you I Love You (1234 - Plain White T's)
I never want to play the games that people play (Guilty - Blue)
I'm here for you (Keep holding on - Avril Lavinge)















Kiss The Rain
Click Here! (Video for Kiss The Rain by Yiruma)


PS: There's only one thing to do Three words for you I Love You (1234 - Plain White T's)

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Moving forward or backward?

Yes it sounds a little coward for a girl like me, to ask a silly question whether to move forward or backward. Well, those were the days, where we (a bunch of friends) used to spend up our leisure time grouping together, study group, or even chit-chatting over non-sense, and most importantly organizing events together.
However, ironically, nowadays, we no longer spend much time together, and recently the silly thought keep flashing in my mind, what is my purpose of going to the same so-called "nostalgia" place?
Each and every time I experienced a different feeling soon after coming back from there. (Well, a place where once upon a time, had became my second home-sweet-home)

It was my pleasure that I was appointed (today) as the assistant events emcee (emcee - Master of Ceremonies). No doubt I learn a lot from a senior, or you can considered her as the experienced and skillful one. She has taught me a few useful skills on handling the overall occasion. Unfortunately, I couldn't absorb as much as a new sponge, instead, I managed to jot them down into a piece of blank paper which after all resulted in a full page of words.

Moving forward requires a lot of courage, bravery, thousand times of trials and of course effort.
Moving backward shows that I am a coward, timid one who prefer to remain staying in the same place without making any movement except to the backward.

Anyhow, I am still, looking and surfing for the best and suitable motive, pushing myself to move forward and not backward. Probably I need to explore more.

PS: This might be a blur, difficult to understand and complicated post, by the way, it is merely a general expression, nothing much.












A picture of the ceremony for the day.

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Fall for you (by secondhand serenade)

A wonderful 1-day-date I ever had,
A worth-spending day (luckily) I did not miss,
An irresistible (earliest) birthday gift I ever received,
A surprising firework (which) out of my expectation,
A perfect time arrangement I ever seen,
A night where I completely lost my mind falling for you.

Those are words in describing a memorable day in my life.
Thank you so much!
I do enjoyed the day, and I meant it.

PS: Curiosity kills at time.

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Camp in Tanjung Malim

Time flies..
It's been more than 4 days I was unable to keep attached to my blog. Well, I spent my precious-only-4-days holidays in a camp at Tanjung Malim which is located in Perak i suppose. To be honest, it was a tiring, exhausting and yet enjoyable camp. Throughout the 4 days 3 nights camp, thanksfully I managed to grab few extra skills, wasn't mean that I couldn't learn it in Penang, it was just merely meeting up a perfect nun at the perfect time. Well, I did appreciate and trying to implement what was being told, seriously. Thank you so much, the realization has transformed my life turned into a colorful one and is no longer the previous one which contains only 2 tones - black and white.









The temple which I had spent 4 days overnight there. 佛宝林 Tanjung Malim














My partner 秀勤 and me. (She's a nice girl, and a teacher-to-be)











Khai Tzong and me. (The board for the opening ceremony, good job!!)

















熙良 aka Namo - The one who drove us safely to the destination.

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The Endless Night - Part 2

As I promised on the previous post, stay tuned for more pictures to be uploaded for the next round.
Here you go...
















The 3 ladies in white - (from left) Jes, Gaik Mooi & Amely
















(from left) SoonKhoon's buddy, Jes, Justina, Gaik Mooi, Amely & Soon Khoon



Well, finally I'm released from the dilemma. (Thanks to those friends who dropped comments on concerning my condition)
As consequence, I might hurt someone else indirectly. Hence, I need to apologize to them over here.
Sorry and thanks for being such understanding.
No matter how, life's still on the go.
I am preparing myself for the upcoming activity - 4 days camp in Tanjung Malim.
Buddy, wish me best of luck. Take care.

PS: I will be back on next Tuesday, promise I will bring lot of pictures for the next post. =)

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The Endless Night

Oh well, "The Endless Night", was the theme for the prom organized by a fellow degree students from Disted College on 12th September 2009.
My bunch of friends and me neither enjoyed the night nor the food. (It was kinda bored and probably we were sitting right at the back, so our view were all blocked)

Anyhow, at least I can proudly say it to my besties "Hey! I was at the prom!"
Should be a great experience though, as it is my final year in the college.
When I'm about to blog it here, I need to thanks to Jayce again, my make-up artist.











The Endless Night


















Gaik Mooi & Me (in the car)


















Dearly princess, Amely

















In the ladies *SHY*
From the left : Amely, Gaik Mooi, Jes & Justina













The guys (from left) Soon Khoon and his buddy














Justina & Me


2 more pictures are still on the progress. Stay tuned~

Realizing my post is far different from the usual one?
Exactly, I either ended them with "stay tuned" or "to be continued".
Well, today I wasn't in the mood, thankfully after class, my bestie Amely managed to pull me out from being day-dreaming again.
Feeling to drop me a comment after "Hey, why being down again? Why day-dreaming again?" ?
What could I utter is....my dear friend, we're always here whenever you need us.

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