breathe

what if there's a lot of what ifs
what if tomorrow i would never be awake
what if i couldn't breathe out in a sudden
what if I lost my directions to discontinue my dream

darkness, is really terrifying me
been thinking through those what ifs...
what kind of solutions, problems, outcomes and so on...
only if I can control things within palms

repeating to question myself that...
am I making things worst
probably I'm a problem creator
probably my emo mode has never been switched off

how long can you live?
once I was asked by my teacher
I stunned, not fear to it but was thinking thoroughly
it counts on the breathe...

please appreciate those people around you
they are just adorable and perfectly perfect to fit in
all the best and wishing everyone merry x'mas

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空

请原谅我，最近都比较忙些课业之余，还忙搞活动，在学院参与了团体，所以上来部落各的时间就自然而然减少了少许。

这个学期里，该忙的都在忙着，生活中偶然难免有低潮，但，这些都是难免的吧？
学业上所承受的压力；活动上所面对的挫折；朋友之间的摩擦；交际上的沟通言语等等，都让我觉得很困惑，不知所措。

能解决的问题就理所当然不再是问题，那如果是无法解决的呢？懦弱的我会选择逃避，把头永远永远藏在乌龟壳里，更好的是不要把头抬起来了。很懦弱吧？ 也或许藏到我觉得是时候解决了，那我也许会被迫硬着头皮去找答案吧。

记得之前一段时间，问过我的麻吉，“如果心灵上累了，该怎么冲刺？” 她给了我很多很多解决方法。 真的真的心灵上，觉得好累，不管是面对事物，人类都好，一切都觉得很假想很虚假，师父说，当多接触佛法后，就会了解一切既是‘空’，或许现在的我处于烦恼之中，需要时间来磨练吧。

拥有；失去， 是俩相反的东西。我珍惜我所拥有的一切，但，更害怕失去一切，这也许是人的贪念吧？属于你的始终会归于你，不是你的，再怎么留也只不过是个’空’。

华语的确比较好表达，但，也会把我的心情拉到最低点，我们应该开开心心面对一切不是吗？

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What if...

Headphones are tuned, music being played, blood flows after rhythm;

the night was torn by the lullaby.
What if...the headphones weren't tuned? Would I be placed in a cheerier mood?

Text-es were sent, feedback received, dreams broken into pieces, disappointment appears.
What if...message wasn't conveyed? Would it be better after all?

Seeing each others, clashes into river of love, promises were made, separation is unbearable;
the road not taken, due to distinct dreams formed.
What if...decision weren't made? Would we still seeing each other now?

Time flies, clock ticks continuously, we grow daily, kids to adult, matured way of thinking, cautious for steps taken;
we fall...we fell, we stand...we stood, learning is priority.
What if...we fall but never learned? Would we be able to move on confidently?


What if....
We made mistakes, we learn, we move on.
Those little imperfections that make life perfect.

I strongly believe, 'Regret' creates a colorful life.

Introducing a song, a OST from Korean Series Boys Over Flower, Do You Know by Someday.

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不 完整的旋律

歌曲 音乐 旋律

回忆 想念 忘怀 心痛 惋惜
解脱 回想 甜蜜 恐惧

时间 空间 了解
记忆 跳动 脑海 清晰
拥抱 舞步 运动

坚强 疲累 脆弱
休息 遥远 支撑 烦恼
分担 崩溃 累垮

无知 稳中 成熟
安慰 躲避 支持 关心
失落 迷茫 沉重

完美 不 完美

这是我在此部落格的全新尝试。母语-简略、容易表达（字眼表达得清晰又准确）。由于我的华语比较弱，因此，我引用了以上的字眼来表达我，此刻复杂又沉重的心情。偶尔把事情想得太简单，其实它并不简单；偶尔把事情想得复杂，但它其实很简单。随着音乐的波动，回忆不断地浮现在脑海中，坚强的外壳也总有累垮的一刻。

人，总有低落的时候；
时间，是最好的解药、最好的治疗；
空间，是给于我呼吸的氧气；
音乐，陪伴我度过甜、酸、苦、辣；
部落格，是我唯一告解的对象；
游泳，是我发泄的方法；
拥抱，是安慰及支持的表示；
你温暖的怀抱，是我累垮的避风港、我的依靠。

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