mixed

Finally....i'm a step closer to a working adult, good news announcing that I've completed my study, yea...Degree study. At this moment I'm still waiting for the release of my results, absolutely I hope that I can get it all pass and kick start with my working life.

Human being is unique, especially if we were to compare between genders, a female and a male. Female, who are keen on expressing out themselves externally, they love sharing, caring and they will be speaking up their minds no matter they are upset or in cloud nine. Probably at times they prefer nagging, raving....just as simple as puking out tons of their thoughts, all and all they need is that someone lay back comfortably and listen to them. However, male who are not keen on expressing themselves, instead they prefer locking up their thoughts in their deepest heart without letting anyone to reveal their secret. Sharing is meaningless, that's what agreed by most of the males.

My mood swings, ups and downs just like a roller coaster, I couldn't help myself but just forced to stay on it. I'm too emotional to judge, to calm myself. A minute ago I was laughing out loud and a minute later; I might be crying helplessly. You might be questioning whether am I insane yet? No, I'm fine....just like any ordinary girl, all I need is only your concentration of listening to what I am or I will be saying. Simple tho?

All the above are just from my point of view. No hard-feeling and it doesn't represent anyone's stand. :)

17082011

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Good start with tree planting project

You might be worrying that my blog will started to shift more towards to Leo events than my own thoughts. Nah....sit back and relax, I will still be writing on my thoughts, with exception that it will not oppose anyone who are reading.

First of all, please allow me to share this great news around.... My new club is on the news!!!

THE newly formed Leo Club of Penang Metropolitan District 308 B2 kick started its programmes by planting 23 trees at the St Nicholas Home.

Its charter president Jesyca Leong, 22, said that it was the club’s way of showing that it cared for the environment.

“Since the formation of the club, we want to take the opportunity to leave a ‘positive mark’ somewhere and what better way to do that than to make the earth a greener and cooler place.

“The 23 Agarwood trees were donated by kind and generous individuals and also the Lions Club,” she said.

Green effort: Leong (right) and Lion Club International District 308 B2 Region 1 chairperson William Lim Kok Peng planting a tree at the St Nicholas Home, Penang

The recent event also saw the installation of 12 members of the board of directors in their respective posts, such as charter pre-sident, vice president, secretary and trea-surer.

Present to launch the event was Tanjung Bungah assemblyman Teh Yee Cheu.

(16th August 2011, http://thestar.com.my/metro/story.asp?file=/2011/8/16/north/9254442&sec=North)

Will be writing more.... stay tuned ^^

17082011

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简单不过的牢骚篇

最近

灿烂的笑容已离我远远的
眉头总是紧绷着
心事也渐渐地变成负担，压力

烦恼。。。
有人说，烦恼是掌握在自己的掌心里
当你觉得累时，痛时，就会松开你的掌心
毫无顾虑地，放开了一切

是你不够了解我？
还是你并没有把你的在乎给现出来？
糊涂的我，怎么也没发现
我们的距离是否变得越来越远？
还是，我们的性格原本就是来自两个不同的世界？

是爱犯了错么？
野蛮的我，固执的我。。。。
坚持相信我们是有未来的
只好不停地，默默地，给自己加油和鼓励！

加油！


与大家，
共勉之

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Process of Learning

Firstly, please do not take everything for granted!!! Process is still proceeding as we grow, day by day, year by year and occasion by occasion. Process is a must, as well as a path for us to grow maturity, catch up and be stronger than before. Question: Am I a failure in certain area??? I'd have my palm on heart and say it loud, "I'm good but still I can do better than this!"

Friendship...we are all surrounded by friends, which mean for those whom either you knew them or you did not, they are considered as your friend, at least, a hi-bye friend? I'm keen on making new friends, especially those across the boundary, which I am really proud of myself, frankly. =)

However, certain friendship will not be lasting...things just carry on that way, I'm not bothered to change anything or advise anything.... As if that friendship worth it, I might consider doing so.

Bravery...I wished that I can conquer my level of bravery in future. Receiving feedback commenting that I was brave in making certain decisions and I gained their respect. I must thank to those who commented, I know who you are. =) However, for things which I am very clear with or should I say as I am confident with, I will be very brave, even braver than other. If I were to put into a black box loaded with questions mark, as you know, lacking of confidence might degraded you and ended up things got done in a lousy and timid way. Let's take up that processes and challenges and paint it into another colorful piece of artwork, shall we?

Supporters are there, I know who you are. =) I'm just blog to cool myself. I hope that whenever I read this entry in the future, or for those who read it, may get the courage and braveness to keep your life going on, get fully re-charged whenever you are feeling down or lack of confident. =)

Let's work it out together!!! =)

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Everything fingers crossed

Kicking start it off with a simple Hi to all of you! I'm not going to explain further for my missing-in-action (MIA) for a few months as I will keep on throwing tons of excuses and bet they'll gonna bored you till the maximum. =)



Still, I'm furthering my study, estimating that I will be graduating end of this year, praying hard for everything went on smoothly (fingers crossed). Just like everyone else, first thing first, definitely I will get myself a job, this is what we called as life cycle isn't it, agree?

Realizing that I'm slowly growing towards the superstitious mindset, whenever obstacles occur, obviously I'll put the blame on the bad year of my zodiac. Who knows how many percent of it goes to true instead of false? Throughout months, I observed and I learned; being polished by the environmental forces which had already shaped and transformed me into another brand new me, perhaps more on my thoughts and actions.

Conflicts and politics are the essential issue which will exist at anywhere, everywhere as long as there lives people. We tends to link up conflicts with another word - tired, am I right? Obviously not physically but mentally. People around might be the one who suffers more than those who are already involved in the circle of conflicts.


Management, is another heavy word which commonly spoken by business field managers as well as among employers. So as conclusion, do you manage your boss or your boss manage you? I came across this book when I visited to the bookstore, "It's not how good you are, It's how good you want to be" - by Paul Arden. What a good quote as well as book title, unfortunately I did not grab myself one, bet I will own it sooner or later.

Communication, is another skills which requires tons and tons of practices. As the quote sounds "Practice makes perfect", but I used to tease my friend by saying "as no one is perfect, so why do you still practice?" (just kidding!!!) We learn as we move on, and we still learn when we are growing, and we will still be learning when we are aging...learning never ends.


Disaster......beforehand, I'd like to pray hard for those whoever stay in Japan, including my host family, my hosting Lions Club as well as my host sister, praying hard for their safety and everything. Same goes to everyone else out there, please appreciate everyone around you especially your loved one. We wont know when the world is going to end, so let's make use of our day, make use of every hours, every minutes and every seconds.

By gones....I forgive, but I will never forget. Fresh memories stay with me for the entire lifetime. =)
Trust me, I am putting my very best foot forward on every single task that I involved in. Praying for a better tomorrow, always.

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Take it easy

Life can be indeed very challenging; however it can be the other way round. I used to think that the everything doesn't work fairly when I met up with obstacles, when things do not work out as smoothly as I wished it would be. There seems to be various ways for different people at different situation to express their anger, or perhaps their depression. How about me? Absolutely I have my own way to. Sometimes I prefer to take a breezy walk along the beach; sometimes I do Blog; or I might be texting with my buddy to vent, and so on.

Will it sound so silly to roll down your tears whenever you're not in the mood? Some might agree but some might not. I personally will not be standing on both parties, instead I'd voice out it depends on what situation is actually going on. The only explanation is, I belong to this group of people, I myself, a person who might be classified as timid but brave at times; labeled as being happy-go-lucky but getting into depression too easily.

I do not get bothered on how would my readers feel after reading this post, BUT the only thing I am going to say is I AM HERE FOR VENTING! Please stop it now if you are worrying that I might be doing sort of silly stuff. I am thankful for everything as long as I am still healthy alive right now and still be able to blog. Great Enough.

I have been procrastinating my new blog entry on introducing my trip to Japan as a Youth Exchange Student. Swear that I really love and enjoy sharing things out, BUT BUT but...put the blame on blogger homepage where we are only allowed to upload 5 of our photos each time; unlike Facebook where we can create our photo album and upload as much as 200 photos freely and instantly by just a few clicks. Admitting that I might be slightly slobby, I will try my very best to click on "New Post" whenever I stick my ass on the desktop chair.

Now, I am going to name this entry as "Take it easy". Take my advise, whenever you are or wherever you are, takes thing as easy and as simple as you can. Life will be much more better if you are taking them on the positive side and not to be influenced by those negative thoughts.

Happy belated V-day to all of you.

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value the value beneath

Holding a book titled 'tuesday with Morrie', a birthday pressie
Bookmark placed on page 157 half way of the stories
Yet lot of values I learned from previous pages
Regrets, Death, Family, Money, Forgiveness and etc...

Remembering once I was truly deeply disappointed over someone
Being cheated, trustworthy was torn
Fragile heart broken into pieces
Friends...Family...were among those who offered me warmth hands

Wondering...how many 10 years will be left in our life? 10 times? or 20?
Effort taken approximately 1 year for us to make new buddy
Effortless taken approximately 1 day to chase away an old buddy
How many true buddy will you be having after 20 years?

Positive regret causes beautiful remark, I strongly and always believe in
Remarks will turned nice if we're sincerely sorry over something which done wrongly
Ugly remarks will be leftover if we do not even realize our own mistakes
Life's short, I suppose every author emphasizes on it

Imagine how wonderful if you learn how to spell 'regret' & 'sorry' by heart
Money isn't essential but friendship is, do not chase away your friend day by day
People will forgive but they will never forget the scar carved
Stop acting as if a Kiddo, be a man and face reality

If possible, please grab 'tuesday with Morrie' by Mitch Albom
Either for your own sake, your family or whoever
Good karma goes after good people, bear in mind
Start to appreciate your friends instead of turning them down one by one...
All the best, that's what I'd like to convey to you...

PS: If you are reading this, please refresh yourself...you know who you are...

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21st Birthday Blast

Well well well....turning into 21st officially, and I own my freedom! =)
Let the photos speak for the blast...

#1 Myself
(p.s.: the camera is not a gift)

#2 A gift from Mummy

#3 Thanks for The Memories (Hard Cover) by Cecelia Ahern
A gift from Akira

#4 Birthday card from College course-mates
(Adorable ain't it?)

#5 A dress by course-mates =)

#6 Chocolate from Fern
(she specially bought it from Langkawi)

#7 Birthday cake
(yes, gum gum and dum dum...
it's my bestie Kuen Mun, she's gum gum, so pick a guess who's dum dum then)

#8 Watch from my dear =)
(The 1st birthday pressie that I received on this year)

#9 Making a wish (probably wishes... Nah! How greedy am i!)

#10 Birthday celebration with Chia Mei and Fern at Nando's

#11 Ambushed birthday blast at my house from GTMers when the clock stroked sharp 12am on 14th Dec

#12 From GTMers as well...

#13 Loving this (thanks to Benny and all for the decoration)

#14 Jeng Jeng Jeng~~~ Pressie from Brother who couriered them from Sabah
(Tuesday with Morrie by Mitch Albom, it will be an interesting book)

#15 Finally...My new look!!!
(I'm waiting for a few weeks' time for my curl to look more natural and nice,
I mean after washing them for a few weeks,
as I don't really like the current curl tho 'coz it's too 'wild' for me Haha!!)

Thank you everyone for sending in all the birthday wishes via SMS, phone calls, Facebook wishes as well as the birthday blast celebration. Appreciate it much! ^^v

Merry X'mas and Happy New Year!

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breathe

what if there's a lot of what ifs
what if tomorrow i would never be awake
what if i couldn't breathe out in a sudden
what if I lost my directions to discontinue my dream

darkness, is really terrifying me
been thinking through those what ifs...
what kind of solutions, problems, outcomes and so on...
only if I can control things within palms

repeating to question myself that...
am I making things worst
probably I'm a problem creator
probably my emo mode has never been switched off

how long can you live?
once I was asked by my teacher
I stunned, not fear to it but was thinking thoroughly
it counts on the breathe...

please appreciate those people around you
they are just adorable and perfectly perfect to fit in
all the best and wishing everyone merry x'mas

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空

请原谅我，最近都比较忙些课业之余，还忙搞活动，在学院参与了团体，所以上来部落各的时间就自然而然减少了少许。

这个学期里，该忙的都在忙着，生活中偶然难免有低潮，但，这些都是难免的吧？
学业上所承受的压力；活动上所面对的挫折；朋友之间的摩擦；交际上的沟通言语等等，都让我觉得很困惑，不知所措。

能解决的问题就理所当然不再是问题，那如果是无法解决的呢？懦弱的我会选择逃避，把头永远永远藏在乌龟壳里，更好的是不要把头抬起来了。很懦弱吧？ 也或许藏到我觉得是时候解决了，那我也许会被迫硬着头皮去找答案吧。

记得之前一段时间，问过我的麻吉，“如果心灵上累了，该怎么冲刺？” 她给了我很多很多解决方法。 真的真的心灵上，觉得好累，不管是面对事物，人类都好，一切都觉得很假想很虚假，师父说，当多接触佛法后，就会了解一切既是‘空’，或许现在的我处于烦恼之中，需要时间来磨练吧。

拥有；失去， 是俩相反的东西。我珍惜我所拥有的一切，但，更害怕失去一切，这也许是人的贪念吧？属于你的始终会归于你，不是你的，再怎么留也只不过是个’空’。

华语的确比较好表达，但，也会把我的心情拉到最低点，我们应该开开心心面对一切不是吗？

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Ferris Wheel

A Ferris Wheel also known as observation wheel or big wheel, according to Wikipedia.
(Picture from Wikipedia)

In this era, who doesn't know what ferris wheel is? Well, no offense. In case you don't, take a quick peep at the picture below.

Whenever I look at Ferris Wheel at funfair, it will reminisce me of the past, or reflecting at our life. We felt excited when we first stepped into the cubical cars; and we are eager to reach up to the highest point and observe things that has slowly became a tiny one where we are beyond everyone else, and soon...we slowly slip down after spending 1 big and complete round in our small cubical.

That kind of sensations is difficult to be expressed out in words, something like...smooth and yet nervous, excited and yet afraid and so on... Ever wonder why Ferris Wheel doesn't turn anti-clockwise? It applies the similar theory in life, we hardly having a 'U-turn' in life, or so called 'reversing'. As the quote sounds, let bygones be bygones, what is done is done. Don't ever complain life's so cruel so mean to each of us, but if it's not, why is it calling life?

Nothing's perfect, yes indeed it's true. But, we are practicing towards a perfectionist, ain't we?
Appreciate for whatever or whoever you're having now, will ya?

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The baby lizard murderer

It was a pretty cold night, where the girl just had her long and warmth shower after a cool rainy afternoon, and soon, she proceed to the balcony.

It was gloomy dark at the balcony, so she intended to switch on the light, but...."Naw! Let's go green and save the mother earth, more energy consumed if I switch on the light. Moreover, I can still see my fingers although it's in the dark", she murmured to herself.

Meanwhile, she thought of checking out the latest stuff in Facebook soon after she's done with her laundry. So, she quicken up everything and marched to her room. After the second marched, she froze, "Hmm.....something is wrong!!! Did I just stepped on something softy? Or...is it just probably a dirt?". No doubt, she twisted her head back, with a blur vision looking down on the floor and questioned herself, "What the hell is the darky stuff?".

She hestitated a while before turning on the light. Oh G-O-S-H! A bloody stain was left behind on the tile, her curiosity was killing her, so she squatted down and took a peep. "OH MY HELL GOD!!!", she screamed and hopped to the toilet bowl and started washing her feet with plenty of body soap. She's the murderer! She's the murderer! Only guilts filled up in her mind. A tiny, baby lizard was lying dead on the tile, with the tiny tail pumping and waving weakly as if it was calling for a rescue.



She lost her rational at that moment, hence, she begged for the mother's help. The mother spontaneously wrapped the body with a few pieces of tissue and dumped it into the bin and consoled her, "Everything's fine right now, my dear." The girl put herself in guilt, and prayed for the baby lizard. May the baby lizard rest in peace.

*Based on a true, real life story. It was just an accident with no any harmful intention. Exaggerations ways of writing may be included and it is just for sharing purposes.


P.S.: Obviously, 'the girl' in the story is nobody else but the author of the Bloggie, Ms Jesyca.

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Laughter

Well...people nowadays tends to be tongue tied to the common quote, 'An apple a day, keeps the doctor away'. However, in fact, be it sincere that how many of us do practice eating apples daily? Ironically, actions speak louder than words, sometimes we ought to admit.

Laughter, is one of a very impressive way of staying youth as our age increases. Well...do not get bothered if you are tired of munching an apple a day, what else you gotta do is just have a smile, or a laugh. Exactly, that is my quote, 'A joke a day that keeps you young forever'. =)

My dear reader(s), have you ever wondered I've been spending a lesser time blogging, if you do realize it. To be more precise, there's actually reasons behind. For the sake of 'sensitivity', hence I could not blog as freely as I used to, could not express out loudly as I used to. In other words, think twice before I write. It works out the similar way where the law of "ISA-Internal Security Act" was imposed in Malaysia.

Blogging should be fun, I know. So I am making myself to smile at least once a day to boost up my moody mood, or a more general word spelled as 'emo'. Friends, please smile and make everyday as your day!

Cheers!

Japanese instrument.

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What if...

Headphones are tuned, music being played, blood flows after rhythm;

the night was torn by the lullaby.
What if...the headphones weren't tuned? Would I be placed in a cheerier mood?

Text-es were sent, feedback received, dreams broken into pieces, disappointment appears.
What if...message wasn't conveyed? Would it be better after all?

Seeing each others, clashes into river of love, promises were made, separation is unbearable;
the road not taken, due to distinct dreams formed.
What if...decision weren't made? Would we still seeing each other now?

Time flies, clock ticks continuously, we grow daily, kids to adult, matured way of thinking, cautious for steps taken;
we fall...we fell, we stand...we stood, learning is priority.
What if...we fall but never learned? Would we be able to move on confidently?


What if....
We made mistakes, we learn, we move on.
Those little imperfections that make life perfect.

I strongly believe, 'Regret' creates a colorful life.

Introducing a song, a OST from Korean Series Boys Over Flower, Do You Know by Someday.

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indescribable

I'm sorry for not updating my Blog for such a long time. Well, things had been getting from fully packed to relaxing period; and yet now from relaxing holiday going to be flooded with tons of tasks, again. Tasks are neither the JIT (Just-In-Time) assignments nor Examinations, anymore. Instead, they are lists of series, such as Glee, Lie To Me, Gossip Girls, Prison Break, and etc.... That should be more than enough for me to go through my long semester break. Additionally, novels are piled up in my room, you know what....Twilight, New Moon.... (I might be a little outdated 'coz I am reading them right now but you guys might finished reading'em centuries ago) What a life, isn't it? (Not bragging, just...just a brief picture of my current life)

For the past few weeks, I went through for my Examinations so I did not grab a chance to update my Blog. Following up, I switched the plan for my Internet Service Provider, to a better and worthily one I supposed. Hence, sorry again 'coz I couldn't write any post for approximately a week. Well said, ain't it?

During the month of June, my mind was overflowed with tons and tons of thoughts, evils...darnly evil thoughts! Sometimes I loathe on myself for behaving such a way. I kept questioning myself, am I doing the right thing? Am I doing things right? Well...I was relieved that I did not burst'em out here, you know there's a rules for Blogger, think twice before you write anything, it's not a good sign to write without filtering. Well...at least I am practicing and stressing on this, but ignore this if you are not. Stop beating about the bush anymore, straight'em up, Yeap, exactly I'm talking about human behavior, once again. I wonder how many times I've been bringing this topic up in my Blog....

No doubt people do loves apple polish, but please limit it!
Exactly people procrastinate much, but please acknowledged the due!
Please do not be such a boastful, acting as if you know every single tiny stuff when you're not!
Show some respects please, my dear...to the elderly especially!

I hope this is not a rude post, swearing neither fingers pointing to anyone, just a sharing out of thoughts that I hardly expressed out. It has come to the stage where.....things are completely indescribable in 26 alphabetical. Just for sharing purposes....

Image Link
PS: The Random Post Ever
(Apologize but deeply no offense)

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Give me a break!

Human...we often heard friends around raving and complaining on how busy they are, how much effort they put on something they felt it's worth doing so, and so on. Well, actually, do they hit a pause and think of why are they so into those stuff? What are they busy for? And why are they busying with it? And what are the main purposes of the word 'busying' goes on?

At times, I tend to get my life on the go and working so damn hard to keep myself as busy/hardworking as a bee. And right now, I've come to the point, I try hitting the break pedal, and questioning myself, what do I actually gain from all those activities that I've been busying for? In conclusion, I've been blindly busying for it, whenever an activity ends, I feel proud of achieving and done with it; but do I ever learn something from the particular activity? The answer is so clear where I would never answer a Yes to it. I never look into the activity, or should I say reviewing on the past events, but instead, we tend to carry on and on...until the day where we started to realize what we've been busying for is actually for a Nothing.

That is why the decision has came to my mind, well...don't be surprised, don't be freaked off, yes I'm gonna quit from my part-time job, resigning from the voluntary society that I've been joining, and concentrating purely on my study. The reason behind is, I really need a break! Break! Break, it provides me the rooms for further improvements, it allows me to review myself in enhancing my skills or personality, it gives me the spare time to spend with my family and my dearest, it gives me time to think of what I'm gonna do next. It sounds so wonderful with the word Break, isn't it?

Sounds funny? Not at all.
Well, I know some of you might disagree with my statement above, anyhow, you are welcome to leave any comments.


Jesyca will be right back, after the Break! =)

PS: Have a break, have a Kit-Kat

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