Enjoying

Rains pouring, showering every creature

The flowers, the grass, the roads and the soil
Each drop of rains are actually dancing rhythmically
Rainbows always shown after rain, am wishing so do you.

Recently I have tons and tons, piles and piles of ups and downs emotions, wanting to blog'em up, but sad case that I couldn't spare out the extra time for blogging. I know I know, some of you gonna tell me, 'Bad time-management' or 'Time is always on your hand, depends on how are you gonna manage it'. Yea, I agree with the above mentioned, as I used to telling my friends about the exact, same thing, too.

Well...for the past few days, as I still managed to recall, I was poured with happiness and surprises. Promising I will blog them one by one when it comes to the right time. I think I will let my pictures speak on my behalf, I know wordy bloggie isn't attractive compared to pictures and colorful stuff. =)

Making fun with my friend's spec. Look nerd right?
PS: Saw the color of my hair??? =) ♥

Celebrating 21st birthday for bestie (from left: Me, Elisa and Janet)
Loving the color tone of my hair. ♥

Leo Activities: Recycled Project at Residence Area.
It was a project where I found it very interesting and fun-doing, as if I'm contributing a little but not much, at least, to our Mother Earth.
(PS: I had my hair dyed on the day before)

Leo Activities, again: Joint Installation
Congratulate to all those new Leos who's now joining the big family, being officially installed as a Leo.

Yes, sorry to bore you, Leo activities: Service Starts From Home - Care For the Elderly

Being an Emcee for a Vegetarian Food Fair organized by Triple Wisdom Hall.
Beside me is my partner, Dew Lim. She's lovely and pretty, isn't she?

Erhmm, should I classify him as my senior?
He's the one who taught me a lot no matter in Leo or being an Emcee, he's no one else but Kim, I used to call him Uncle Kim, punishment for him calling me after funny and crappy names. *evil laugh*

Spot me!
Yea, this is Malaysian-Chinese culture, we do enjoy holding lanterns on Mid-Autumn Festival, together the celebration goes on with mooncake.
(Reminiscing of the past)

Introducing another pretty and youthful lady, Vivien.
She came along the way from Kuala Lumpur and joined us for the event. ♥

No doubt that's me! We were asked to pose in a funny and creative way.

Attended my bestie's graduation ceremony.
PS: Congratulations!!! And all the best!

Lastly, I fell in love with Bloop de Paris - puff blusher. Especially the youthful pinky tone.
They are adorable and irresistible! Pampering myself with this product.

That's it for this post, probably it's overloaded activities that hold within a month.
What more? It's a superbseptember!


Introducing the song that I'm recently madly in love with.
Just A Dream Cover (Nelly) - Jason Chen & Vincent Joseph

Youtube at here.
Facebook for Jason Chen is right here.

PS: Vincent looks cool in this clip!

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Ferris Wheel

A Ferris Wheel also known as observation wheel or big wheel, according to Wikipedia.
(Picture from Wikipedia)

In this era, who doesn't know what ferris wheel is? Well, no offense. In case you don't, take a quick peep at the picture below.

Whenever I look at Ferris Wheel at funfair, it will reminisce me of the past, or reflecting at our life. We felt excited when we first stepped into the cubical cars; and we are eager to reach up to the highest point and observe things that has slowly became a tiny one where we are beyond everyone else, and soon...we slowly slip down after spending 1 big and complete round in our small cubical.

That kind of sensations is difficult to be expressed out in words, something like...smooth and yet nervous, excited and yet afraid and so on... Ever wonder why Ferris Wheel doesn't turn anti-clockwise? It applies the similar theory in life, we hardly having a 'U-turn' in life, or so called 'reversing'. As the quote sounds, let bygones be bygones, what is done is done. Don't ever complain life's so cruel so mean to each of us, but if it's not, why is it calling life?

Nothing's perfect, yes indeed it's true. But, we are practicing towards a perfectionist, ain't we?
Appreciate for whatever or whoever you're having now, will ya?

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The baby lizard murderer

It was a pretty cold night, where the girl just had her long and warmth shower after a cool rainy afternoon, and soon, she proceed to the balcony.

It was gloomy dark at the balcony, so she intended to switch on the light, but...."Naw! Let's go green and save the mother earth, more energy consumed if I switch on the light. Moreover, I can still see my fingers although it's in the dark", she murmured to herself.

Meanwhile, she thought of checking out the latest stuff in Facebook soon after she's done with her laundry. So, she quicken up everything and marched to her room. After the second marched, she froze, "Hmm.....something is wrong!!! Did I just stepped on something softy? Or...is it just probably a dirt?". No doubt, she twisted her head back, with a blur vision looking down on the floor and questioned herself, "What the hell is the darky stuff?".

She hestitated a while before turning on the light. Oh G-O-S-H! A bloody stain was left behind on the tile, her curiosity was killing her, so she squatted down and took a peep. "OH MY HELL GOD!!!", she screamed and hopped to the toilet bowl and started washing her feet with plenty of body soap. She's the murderer! She's the murderer! Only guilts filled up in her mind. A tiny, baby lizard was lying dead on the tile, with the tiny tail pumping and waving weakly as if it was calling for a rescue.



She lost her rational at that moment, hence, she begged for the mother's help. The mother spontaneously wrapped the body with a few pieces of tissue and dumped it into the bin and consoled her, "Everything's fine right now, my dear." The girl put herself in guilt, and prayed for the baby lizard. May the baby lizard rest in peace.

*Based on a true, real life story. It was just an accident with no any harmful intention. Exaggerations ways of writing may be included and it is just for sharing purposes.


P.S.: Obviously, 'the girl' in the story is nobody else but the author of the Bloggie, Ms Jesyca.

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Laughter

Well...people nowadays tends to be tongue tied to the common quote, 'An apple a day, keeps the doctor away'. However, in fact, be it sincere that how many of us do practice eating apples daily? Ironically, actions speak louder than words, sometimes we ought to admit.

Laughter, is one of a very impressive way of staying youth as our age increases. Well...do not get bothered if you are tired of munching an apple a day, what else you gotta do is just have a smile, or a laugh. Exactly, that is my quote, 'A joke a day that keeps you young forever'. =)

My dear reader(s), have you ever wondered I've been spending a lesser time blogging, if you do realize it. To be more precise, there's actually reasons behind. For the sake of 'sensitivity', hence I could not blog as freely as I used to, could not express out loudly as I used to. In other words, think twice before I write. It works out the similar way where the law of "ISA-Internal Security Act" was imposed in Malaysia.

Blogging should be fun, I know. So I am making myself to smile at least once a day to boost up my moody mood, or a more general word spelled as 'emo'. Friends, please smile and make everyday as your day!

Cheers!

Japanese instrument.

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Blogger is cool, right now!

Hey peeps! Heard what I said? Yea, Blogger is cool now! With the help from my brother, I finally can upload my entry with a song enclosed. Cool ain't it? This is just a short and brief post, I'll upload more, I'll puke more into my Bloggie-bin, promise you'll stay tuned alright?

Introducing a lovely korean sentimental song, is an Original Sound Track, again. From the drama of Beautiful Days - 为了你. One of my favorite song, it's my message ring-tone now!

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What if...

Headphones are tuned, music being played, blood flows after rhythm;

the night was torn by the lullaby.
What if...the headphones weren't tuned? Would I be placed in a cheerier mood?

Text-es were sent, feedback received, dreams broken into pieces, disappointment appears.
What if...message wasn't conveyed? Would it be better after all?

Seeing each others, clashes into river of love, promises were made, separation is unbearable;
the road not taken, due to distinct dreams formed.
What if...decision weren't made? Would we still seeing each other now?

Time flies, clock ticks continuously, we grow daily, kids to adult, matured way of thinking, cautious for steps taken;
we fall...we fell, we stand...we stood, learning is priority.
What if...we fall but never learned? Would we be able to move on confidently?


What if....
We made mistakes, we learn, we move on.
Those little imperfections that make life perfect.

I strongly believe, 'Regret' creates a colorful life.

Introducing a song, a OST from Korean Series Boys Over Flower, Do You Know by Someday.

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indescribable

I'm sorry for not updating my Blog for such a long time. Well, things had been getting from fully packed to relaxing period; and yet now from relaxing holiday going to be flooded with tons of tasks, again. Tasks are neither the JIT (Just-In-Time) assignments nor Examinations, anymore. Instead, they are lists of series, such as Glee, Lie To Me, Gossip Girls, Prison Break, and etc.... That should be more than enough for me to go through my long semester break. Additionally, novels are piled up in my room, you know what....Twilight, New Moon.... (I might be a little outdated 'coz I am reading them right now but you guys might finished reading'em centuries ago) What a life, isn't it? (Not bragging, just...just a brief picture of my current life)

For the past few weeks, I went through for my Examinations so I did not grab a chance to update my Blog. Following up, I switched the plan for my Internet Service Provider, to a better and worthily one I supposed. Hence, sorry again 'coz I couldn't write any post for approximately a week. Well said, ain't it?

During the month of June, my mind was overflowed with tons and tons of thoughts, evils...darnly evil thoughts! Sometimes I loathe on myself for behaving such a way. I kept questioning myself, am I doing the right thing? Am I doing things right? Well...I was relieved that I did not burst'em out here, you know there's a rules for Blogger, think twice before you write anything, it's not a good sign to write without filtering. Well...at least I am practicing and stressing on this, but ignore this if you are not. Stop beating about the bush anymore, straight'em up, Yeap, exactly I'm talking about human behavior, once again. I wonder how many times I've been bringing this topic up in my Blog....

No doubt people do loves apple polish, but please limit it!
Exactly people procrastinate much, but please acknowledged the due!
Please do not be such a boastful, acting as if you know every single tiny stuff when you're not!
Show some respects please, my dear...to the elderly especially!

I hope this is not a rude post, swearing neither fingers pointing to anyone, just a sharing out of thoughts that I hardly expressed out. It has come to the stage where.....things are completely indescribable in 26 alphabetical. Just for sharing purposes....

Image Link
PS: The Random Post Ever
(Apologize but deeply no offense)

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不 完整的旋律

歌曲 音乐 旋律

回忆 想念 忘怀 心痛 惋惜
解脱 回想 甜蜜 恐惧

时间 空间 了解
记忆 跳动 脑海 清晰
拥抱 舞步 运动

坚强 疲累 脆弱
休息 遥远 支撑 烦恼
分担 崩溃 累垮

无知 稳中 成熟
安慰 躲避 支持 关心
失落 迷茫 沉重

完美 不 完美

这是我在此部落格的全新尝试。母语-简略、容易表达（字眼表达得清晰又准确）。由于我的华语比较弱，因此，我引用了以上的字眼来表达我，此刻复杂又沉重的心情。偶尔把事情想得太简单，其实它并不简单；偶尔把事情想得复杂，但它其实很简单。随着音乐的波动，回忆不断地浮现在脑海中，坚强的外壳也总有累垮的一刻。

人，总有低落的时候；
时间，是最好的解药、最好的治疗；
空间，是给于我呼吸的氧气；
音乐，陪伴我度过甜、酸、苦、辣；
部落格，是我唯一告解的对象；
游泳，是我发泄的方法；
拥抱，是安慰及支持的表示；
你温暖的怀抱，是我累垮的避风港、我的依靠。

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Give me a break!

Human...we often heard friends around raving and complaining on how busy they are, how much effort they put on something they felt it's worth doing so, and so on. Well, actually, do they hit a pause and think of why are they so into those stuff? What are they busy for? And why are they busying with it? And what are the main purposes of the word 'busying' goes on?

At times, I tend to get my life on the go and working so damn hard to keep myself as busy/hardworking as a bee. And right now, I've come to the point, I try hitting the break pedal, and questioning myself, what do I actually gain from all those activities that I've been busying for? In conclusion, I've been blindly busying for it, whenever an activity ends, I feel proud of achieving and done with it; but do I ever learn something from the particular activity? The answer is so clear where I would never answer a Yes to it. I never look into the activity, or should I say reviewing on the past events, but instead, we tend to carry on and on...until the day where we started to realize what we've been busying for is actually for a Nothing.

That is why the decision has came to my mind, well...don't be surprised, don't be freaked off, yes I'm gonna quit from my part-time job, resigning from the voluntary society that I've been joining, and concentrating purely on my study. The reason behind is, I really need a break! Break! Break, it provides me the rooms for further improvements, it allows me to review myself in enhancing my skills or personality, it gives me the spare time to spend with my family and my dearest, it gives me time to think of what I'm gonna do next. It sounds so wonderful with the word Break, isn't it?

Sounds funny? Not at all.
Well, I know some of you might disagree with my statement above, anyhow, you are welcome to leave any comments.


Jesyca will be right back, after the Break! =)

PS: Have a break, have a Kit-Kat

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Do you worth it?

Hi folks, another casual post from me again. I'm gonna blurt up my thinking about Friends. Well, I am convinced that each and everyone of us does need friends around, and we do enjoy being around with friends, am I right? Remember when we were young, how innocent and how cute of us who used to follow the culture input by the adults - we shake our hands when making friend with another before introducing. Sooner, this culture has been adopted by each of us, and we practice it every single time when we are meeting new friends.

As time flies, we started to learn from our mistakes, absorb the gist or the moral of our stupidity, and we try to avoid repeating the exact mistake again when we were put into the similar shoe. Or in short, our brain has begun to differentiate between true and false, black and white, and good or bad. The quote where we commonly shared among 'don't judge a book by its cover', well, I believe in this and I vow I am putting my best foot forward in implementing it on my routines. Whenever I meet up with someone or should I class him/her as stranger (at the first point), and my brain cells start working already - observation. No doubt, I am pretty sure that I am treating every friends of mine the exact way, no bias. (Probably I might be bias once a while, and sorry for that, no offense)

As a human, we own the ability to think wisely. After mixing with the bunch of friends for quite sometime, we are able to judge and do the classification by our own self, with or without sharing them out. However, in reality....nothing goes as perfect as you wished, things might be out of track, things might turn you down badly. Betraying, accusing, lies, back-stabbing and etc will soon be revealed out, and by the time you found it out, and peeling the lies in between as if layer by layer, it hurts you badly, ain't it? For me, yes, it will. At this point, if accusing has come to the picture, what am I gonna do next? Fight back? Explaining a millions of time? Remain silent? Let it be? Well, I will stick back to my own philosophy, if that particular friend (the accuser) worth it, never mind if I am to explain it either a millions or a thousands of time to make things crystal clear; if vice versa, then I will just remain silent and let it be, because he/she does not worth to be bothered at all!

I set it clear in my mind, I observed before I classify. (Please do not confuse yourself, I do not classify but I am observing when I first met with the new friend, I started classifying after mingle around for a certain period) 'A friend in need is a friend indeed' - means a true friend who comes to your aid when you're in difficulties. There are various types of friend, some are true and sincere friend, some are just exploiting, some are making fool of you, some are just good at crapping around, some are darnly good at 'acting', some are expertise in twisting facts around, some are purely for mixing around and so on... My advice is, be wise! The surface never reveal everything, everything.
PS: So peeps, what is your opinion or your own philosophy in making a friend?

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A letter to Daddy and Mummy

A letter dedicated to my parents. I am deeply sorry for my rebellant behavior.


Dear Daddy and Mummy,

When I was in Diploma
I promised,
I would study hard
I would not disappoint you
And yes, I did it!

Currently
I'm in my Degree Level
Similarly
I promised, again
I will study hard
I will never disappoint you

Daddy never ground me intentionally
Daddy never force me doing things which I don't want to
Daddy never give up on me, not even a second

Mummy's love is always the warmest
Mummy's care never ends
Mummy's heart is pounding for her kids

In Daddy and Mummy's heart, we (already an adult) always stay as a kid no matter how old we are. To them, we, as if we never grown up. They care, they nurture, and they concern us at every single moment. Their worries will never stop. At times, when we go further down, we tend to forget we still have our parents around us. Reflection, again Daddy reminded me of that. I've been putting too much effort on social networking, where I tend to neglected my studies and my family.

Well, my first tear rolled down, for the sake of I deeply love my Daddy and Mummy. When my second tear rolled down, I recalled how bad things turned out when I neglected them, for not accompanying them during the weekends and the only family day which normally falls on the Sunday. My tears burst out after I hugged Daddy for his heart-to-heart talk with me. Thank you for everything. Thank you for reminiscing me for the valued things which I have been holding on my palms - my family, my siblings, and my love.

I love you so!

Always Daddy and Mummy's girl,

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Meaning of Life

Our life, determined by the gasping of air

Our life, is indeed fragile and short
Our life, we manual our destiny
Our life...what is life means?

Eating, Drinking, Playing and Enjoying
Is that what we describe Life after all?
Haven't we done something meaningful?
Turn the angle, you might see life as nothing, nothing

We, everyone is experiencing the Life Cycle
We crawl like a baby
We hang on schooling
We work as if a cow
We nurture our new generation
We spend time touring countries
We wait for the Time to be taken
That's it? The end?

Hectic or Slacking, we choose
Colorful or Dull, we determine
Meaningful or Insignificant, we decide

Somehow, the meaning of Life is yet to be found (to me). I'm sorry for the pathetic post. The idea pops out when I was chatting with my sweetie mummy, and we were so into this topic, we sighed; we joked, and yet we did not conclude our topic well. The question is still exist on my mind, why and what are we living for? And now, you tell me what's yours!

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2010年心的蜕变学佛营 --- 寻找一片天空

Firstly, apologize to my readers.

The details for this post will be fully in mandarin version, for those who find it difficult to understand, I'll elaborate here.

Well, this is a 3-days-2-nights Childrens' Camp for the Year of 2010 (11 to 13/6/2010), organized by Penang Triple Wisdom Hall Sunday School, mostly welcome and encouraged for the the children aged 10 to 12 years old, RM40 per head and it is on first-come-first-served basis (for the first 80 participants only). This camp will be taken place at Penang Buddhist Association (Anson Road).

If you are interested, and you're in!
Please do not hesitate to contact me via e-mail (jesyca_88@hotmail.com) or leave me a comment regarding this camp... or look for us at Facebook!

Act Fast!!
Best before 7/5/2010 before it's due!!!

宗旨 ：灌输基本的佛学知识、提升营员的人格修养、培养营员学习独立的能力，増强自信心。

目的 ：灌输正确的学佛观、灌输优良的道德观、鼓励营员自立与自律。

对象 ：四年级至六年级学生 (10－12岁)

日期 ：11.06.2010 (星期五) 至 13.06. 2010 (星期日)

地点 ：槟城佛学院 (168，Jalan Anson， 10400 Penang)

报到时间 ：8:00 am – 8:30 am (11.06.2010)

离营时间 ：6:30 pm (13.06.2010)

营费 ：RM40.00

名额 ：只限80名

报名表格索取处：三慧讲堂 / 三慧讲堂周日义校

报名截止日期 ：07.05.2010 (星期五) 至额满为止

报名手续 ：填妥报名表格及家长同意书后(确实填妥每一个栏位，字迹工整、清晰)，连同报名费 交至三慧讲堂 / 三慧讲堂周日义校

衣物 ：宽松长裤及有袖t-shirt

自备 ： 1.足够替换的衣服(包括一件蓝色t-shirt)、长裤、棉衣、毛巾、拖鞋、运动鞋、衣架1支衣、夹2个、水罐
2.洗刷用品 (牙刷、牙膏、肥皂)
3.卧具 (枕头、被单、草席或睡袋)

药物 ：请自备个人所需之药物（如有需要）

学员安全 ：主办当局将尽力确保学员的安全，唯不须为任何意外事件负责

询问电话 ：012－429 6762 方绥绒老师 (顾问老师)
04 －226 4975 显圣法师 (筹委会主席)
016－451 5824 许文玉老师 (筹委会秘书)

细 则 ：1. 严禁携带手机、手表、闹钟或任何贵重物品。
2. 主办当局将不负责营员的财物损失。
3. 不可无故缺席，以免浪费学额。凡缺席者，报名费将不会被退还。
4. 参加者报到后，不得随意离开营地，也不得迟到早退。
5. 本简章若有不尽善之处，主办当局有权增删之。

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Don't squeeze me!

fortunate for who we are

being protected, under one roof
a friend in need is a friend indeed
the family shelter will not last forever
the one long lasting might be our sincere friends

hitting the age, exposing to the real and yet cold world
experiences shall be gained throughout times
the ambiance naturally is neither friendly nor cool
the backstabbers are those managed to survive
we are taught and shaped in order to strive for own selves

procrastination disease in studies has knocked me down finally
tomorrow, tomorrow and tomorrow I whispered
endless tomorrow seems to put me right in guilt
different practices amongst has indirectly contributing to obstacles
toleration is the way of how a TEAM is born

"If life gives you lemon, made a lemonade"
true and precise quote indeed, hands on for agreeing
expecting more from the subordinates and yet unwilling to pay extras
demanding, controlling, monitoring and doubting
Hence, I learn, adapt and change the way I used to think

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Shoo Away

stop it, stop bothering where nonsense thoughts are popping up
shoo them all away!
matters are perceived differently, by the intelligence, the thinkers and the criticizers
communication could be the biggest barriers between the groups
variation of culture practices could either be one of them, too
people comes, people goes
the people whom someone might have been waiting for the entire life
is it their Mr. Right or Ms. Right, they kept wondering days and nights
building bond from a stranger into someone important is neither an easy task nor a 1-day-task
'happily forever' has became the dream where everyone after it
those achievers can be numerical counted when 'how many' question arises
defining reality as cruel and bloody is indeed the unchangeable fact
for you and I, we can hardly deny the fact although we hoped it is not
understanding, keeping the pace a step closer could be the efficient step that should be considered
listening are far away more important than merely hearing - "I am hearing but I might not listening"
pounding heart, moving motions, sensitive intuition are all working fine
self-questioning continuously but without a clear outcome
for the reason why the teary heart isn't working fine

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Daddy's Cool

Daddy is always so cool and friendly as if he is playing a role as my friend.
We love teasing around, showing off our own strength to one another and yet
we do quarrel or should I said it as argue over a tiny mini matters.
Well, no doubt saying that Daddy has been pampering me all the times, no matter what I request for, normally he will promise it and put his best foot forward in fulfilling my needs and wants (but certainly, it must be reasonable and not beyond his limitation). This is darn lovely and wonderful, that I couldn't stop myself from sharing it among my friends.

I wonder have you ever heard of this traditionally quote, a daughter was a daddy's wife in their last life. Sounds a little make sense and yet ridiculous?
Well, sometimes I, myself do believe in this quote, too. Why?? This is proven in my family, as at times Mummy will tease daddy and me, saying that we are just like a sweet couple when we're walking side by side.

Daddy has been giving me spaces for privacy and freedom. He does not interfere me anymore (as he used to nag me and giving me tons of reminders) although he knows I'm currently into a relationship with a guy. That's sweet, ain't it?

When the time comes....Daddy starts to fully utilize his powerful and the one and only weapon, guess what? Read this. "This reddish apple must be sweet and juicy, can you cut them into smaller pieces for me?" said Daddy to Mummy. Well, such a cheeky girl like me, I grab the chance and tease him instantly, "Why wouldn't you just give it a bite, oh lazy...." Oh well...here it comes!!! Daddy says,"You love me, don't you? Show it to me then." So....I wont elaborate much here, you should know how I should respond right? Yea..cut the apple into pieces, and serve it right to him. You know what? That's my Daddy, Daddy's cool, ain't it? =)

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