Process of Learning

Firstly, please do not take everything for granted!!! Process is still proceeding as we grow, day by day, year by year and occasion by occasion. Process is a must, as well as a path for us to grow maturity, catch up and be stronger than before. Question: Am I a failure in certain area??? I'd have my palm on heart and say it loud, "I'm good but still I can do better than this!"

Friendship...we are all surrounded by friends, which mean for those whom either you knew them or you did not, they are considered as your friend, at least, a hi-bye friend? I'm keen on making new friends, especially those across the boundary, which I am really proud of myself, frankly. =)

However, certain friendship will not be lasting...things just carry on that way, I'm not bothered to change anything or advise anything.... As if that friendship worth it, I might consider doing so.

Bravery...I wished that I can conquer my level of bravery in future. Receiving feedback commenting that I was brave in making certain decisions and I gained their respect. I must thank to those who commented, I know who you are. =) However, for things which I am very clear with or should I say as I am confident with, I will be very brave, even braver than other. If I were to put into a black box loaded with questions mark, as you know, lacking of confidence might degraded you and ended up things got done in a lousy and timid way. Let's take up that processes and challenges and paint it into another colorful piece of artwork, shall we?

Supporters are there, I know who you are. =) I'm just blog to cool myself. I hope that whenever I read this entry in the future, or for those who read it, may get the courage and braveness to keep your life going on, get fully re-charged whenever you are feeling down or lack of confident. =)

Let's work it out together!!! =)

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Everything fingers crossed

Kicking start it off with a simple Hi to all of you! I'm not going to explain further for my missing-in-action (MIA) for a few months as I will keep on throwing tons of excuses and bet they'll gonna bored you till the maximum. =)



Still, I'm furthering my study, estimating that I will be graduating end of this year, praying hard for everything went on smoothly (fingers crossed). Just like everyone else, first thing first, definitely I will get myself a job, this is what we called as life cycle isn't it, agree?

Realizing that I'm slowly growing towards the superstitious mindset, whenever obstacles occur, obviously I'll put the blame on the bad year of my zodiac. Who knows how many percent of it goes to true instead of false? Throughout months, I observed and I learned; being polished by the environmental forces which had already shaped and transformed me into another brand new me, perhaps more on my thoughts and actions.

Conflicts and politics are the essential issue which will exist at anywhere, everywhere as long as there lives people. We tends to link up conflicts with another word - tired, am I right? Obviously not physically but mentally. People around might be the one who suffers more than those who are already involved in the circle of conflicts.


Management, is another heavy word which commonly spoken by business field managers as well as among employers. So as conclusion, do you manage your boss or your boss manage you? I came across this book when I visited to the bookstore, "It's not how good you are, It's how good you want to be" - by Paul Arden. What a good quote as well as book title, unfortunately I did not grab myself one, bet I will own it sooner or later.

Communication, is another skills which requires tons and tons of practices. As the quote sounds "Practice makes perfect", but I used to tease my friend by saying "as no one is perfect, so why do you still practice?" (just kidding!!!) We learn as we move on, and we still learn when we are growing, and we will still be learning when we are aging...learning never ends.


Disaster......beforehand, I'd like to pray hard for those whoever stay in Japan, including my host family, my hosting Lions Club as well as my host sister, praying hard for their safety and everything. Same goes to everyone else out there, please appreciate everyone around you especially your loved one. We wont know when the world is going to end, so let's make use of our day, make use of every hours, every minutes and every seconds.

By gones....I forgive, but I will never forget. Fresh memories stay with me for the entire lifetime. =)
Trust me, I am putting my very best foot forward on every single task that I involved in. Praying for a better tomorrow, always.

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Take it easy

Life can be indeed very challenging; however it can be the other way round. I used to think that the everything doesn't work fairly when I met up with obstacles, when things do not work out as smoothly as I wished it would be. There seems to be various ways for different people at different situation to express their anger, or perhaps their depression. How about me? Absolutely I have my own way to. Sometimes I prefer to take a breezy walk along the beach; sometimes I do Blog; or I might be texting with my buddy to vent, and so on.

Will it sound so silly to roll down your tears whenever you're not in the mood? Some might agree but some might not. I personally will not be standing on both parties, instead I'd voice out it depends on what situation is actually going on. The only explanation is, I belong to this group of people, I myself, a person who might be classified as timid but brave at times; labeled as being happy-go-lucky but getting into depression too easily.

I do not get bothered on how would my readers feel after reading this post, BUT the only thing I am going to say is I AM HERE FOR VENTING! Please stop it now if you are worrying that I might be doing sort of silly stuff. I am thankful for everything as long as I am still healthy alive right now and still be able to blog. Great Enough.

I have been procrastinating my new blog entry on introducing my trip to Japan as a Youth Exchange Student. Swear that I really love and enjoy sharing things out, BUT BUT but...put the blame on blogger homepage where we are only allowed to upload 5 of our photos each time; unlike Facebook where we can create our photo album and upload as much as 200 photos freely and instantly by just a few clicks. Admitting that I might be slightly slobby, I will try my very best to click on "New Post" whenever I stick my ass on the desktop chair.

Now, I am going to name this entry as "Take it easy". Take my advise, whenever you are or wherever you are, takes thing as easy and as simple as you can. Life will be much more better if you are taking them on the positive side and not to be influenced by those negative thoughts.

Happy belated V-day to all of you.

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value the value beneath

Holding a book titled 'tuesday with Morrie', a birthday pressie
Bookmark placed on page 157 half way of the stories
Yet lot of values I learned from previous pages
Regrets, Death, Family, Money, Forgiveness and etc...

Remembering once I was truly deeply disappointed over someone
Being cheated, trustworthy was torn
Fragile heart broken into pieces
Friends...Family...were among those who offered me warmth hands

Wondering...how many 10 years will be left in our life? 10 times? or 20?
Effort taken approximately 1 year for us to make new buddy
Effortless taken approximately 1 day to chase away an old buddy
How many true buddy will you be having after 20 years?

Positive regret causes beautiful remark, I strongly and always believe in
Remarks will turned nice if we're sincerely sorry over something which done wrongly
Ugly remarks will be leftover if we do not even realize our own mistakes
Life's short, I suppose every author emphasizes on it

Imagine how wonderful if you learn how to spell 'regret' & 'sorry' by heart
Money isn't essential but friendship is, do not chase away your friend day by day
People will forgive but they will never forget the scar carved
Stop acting as if a Kiddo, be a man and face reality

If possible, please grab 'tuesday with Morrie' by Mitch Albom
Either for your own sake, your family or whoever
Good karma goes after good people, bear in mind
Start to appreciate your friends instead of turning them down one by one...
All the best, that's what I'd like to convey to you...

PS: If you are reading this, please refresh yourself...you know who you are...

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I'm back!

Just came back from my Youth Exchange trip, Japan. It was a superb enjoyable trip that I ever had, I spent 3 weeks in Fukuoka, Japan, staying at the house of my foster family. In the family, I'm the eldest, my host parents have 4 children, aged 21, 20, 17 and 11. All of them are very friendly and nice to me especially my host mother. Loving the culture and the people over there of which I myself highly respect the beauty of the culture and the norms shared among the Japanese.

Besides, thanks to my hosting Lions club of Saiki, all the Lion members treated me so great and nice...I really appreciate the hospitality at there. I will be sharing out my photos on my Facebook. Please add me there and feel free to view my photos and comments are mostly welcomed!

If you guys got no Facebook account, no worry!!! I will be sharing out some of my interesting photos on my blog, just stay tune and be with me~ Chinese New Year is just around the corner, everybody is busy with the preparation. You know what, I love Chinese New Year!!!

A photo of me and my leader, Yu-An. A very nice person of her.

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Happy 2011 a great new year

Yoo peeps!!!
If you guys still remember, I did mention about my trip to another country for 3 weeks' time. Yeah, exactly I'm now preparing for my Youth Exchange trip. Will be departing tomorrow. *exciting*

In other words, which means that there will be no updates from Jesyca's corner during that period.
Stay tune for more pictures sharing after that. Beforehand, I'd like to share some of my preparations.

#1 Souvenirs

#2 Penang souvenirs

#3 Gifts for my host family

#4 A token of gift to my host parents & the Saiki Lions Club,
representing me myself and my family.

That's all for now. Happy 2011 everyone!!!

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21st Birthday Blast

Well well well....turning into 21st officially, and I own my freedom! =)
Let the photos speak for the blast...

#1 Myself
(p.s.: the camera is not a gift)

#2 A gift from Mummy

#3 Thanks for The Memories (Hard Cover) by Cecelia Ahern
A gift from Akira

#4 Birthday card from College course-mates
(Adorable ain't it?)

#5 A dress by course-mates =)

#6 Chocolate from Fern
(she specially bought it from Langkawi)

#7 Birthday cake
(yes, gum gum and dum dum...
it's my bestie Kuen Mun, she's gum gum, so pick a guess who's dum dum then)

#8 Watch from my dear =)
(The 1st birthday pressie that I received on this year)

#9 Making a wish (probably wishes... Nah! How greedy am i!)

#10 Birthday celebration with Chia Mei and Fern at Nando's

#11 Ambushed birthday blast at my house from GTMers when the clock stroked sharp 12am on 14th Dec

#12 From GTMers as well...

#13 Loving this (thanks to Benny and all for the decoration)

#14 Jeng Jeng Jeng~~~ Pressie from Brother who couriered them from Sabah
(Tuesday with Morrie by Mitch Albom, it will be an interesting book)

#15 Finally...My new look!!!
(I'm waiting for a few weeks' time for my curl to look more natural and nice,
I mean after washing them for a few weeks,
as I don't really like the current curl tho 'coz it's too 'wild' for me Haha!!)

Thank you everyone for sending in all the birthday wishes via SMS, phone calls, Facebook wishes as well as the birthday blast celebration. Appreciate it much! ^^v

Merry X'mas and Happy New Year!

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breathe

what if there's a lot of what ifs
what if tomorrow i would never be awake
what if i couldn't breathe out in a sudden
what if I lost my directions to discontinue my dream

darkness, is really terrifying me
been thinking through those what ifs...
what kind of solutions, problems, outcomes and so on...
only if I can control things within palms

repeating to question myself that...
am I making things worst
probably I'm a problem creator
probably my emo mode has never been switched off

how long can you live?
once I was asked by my teacher
I stunned, not fear to it but was thinking thoroughly
it counts on the breathe...

please appreciate those people around you
they are just adorable and perfectly perfect to fit in
all the best and wishing everyone merry x'mas

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空

请原谅我，最近都比较忙些课业之余，还忙搞活动，在学院参与了团体，所以上来部落各的时间就自然而然减少了少许。

这个学期里，该忙的都在忙着，生活中偶然难免有低潮，但，这些都是难免的吧？
学业上所承受的压力；活动上所面对的挫折；朋友之间的摩擦；交际上的沟通言语等等，都让我觉得很困惑，不知所措。

能解决的问题就理所当然不再是问题，那如果是无法解决的呢？懦弱的我会选择逃避，把头永远永远藏在乌龟壳里，更好的是不要把头抬起来了。很懦弱吧？ 也或许藏到我觉得是时候解决了，那我也许会被迫硬着头皮去找答案吧。

记得之前一段时间，问过我的麻吉，“如果心灵上累了，该怎么冲刺？” 她给了我很多很多解决方法。 真的真的心灵上，觉得好累，不管是面对事物，人类都好，一切都觉得很假想很虚假，师父说，当多接触佛法后，就会了解一切既是‘空’，或许现在的我处于烦恼之中，需要时间来磨练吧。

拥有；失去， 是俩相反的东西。我珍惜我所拥有的一切，但，更害怕失去一切，这也许是人的贪念吧？属于你的始终会归于你，不是你的，再怎么留也只不过是个’空’。

华语的确比较好表达，但，也会把我的心情拉到最低点，我们应该开开心心面对一切不是吗？

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Enjoying

Rains pouring, showering every creature

The flowers, the grass, the roads and the soil
Each drop of rains are actually dancing rhythmically
Rainbows always shown after rain, am wishing so do you.

Recently I have tons and tons, piles and piles of ups and downs emotions, wanting to blog'em up, but sad case that I couldn't spare out the extra time for blogging. I know I know, some of you gonna tell me, 'Bad time-management' or 'Time is always on your hand, depends on how are you gonna manage it'. Yea, I agree with the above mentioned, as I used to telling my friends about the exact, same thing, too.

Well...for the past few days, as I still managed to recall, I was poured with happiness and surprises. Promising I will blog them one by one when it comes to the right time. I think I will let my pictures speak on my behalf, I know wordy bloggie isn't attractive compared to pictures and colorful stuff. =)

Making fun with my friend's spec. Look nerd right?
PS: Saw the color of my hair??? =) ♥

Celebrating 21st birthday for bestie (from left: Me, Elisa and Janet)
Loving the color tone of my hair. ♥

Leo Activities: Recycled Project at Residence Area.
It was a project where I found it very interesting and fun-doing, as if I'm contributing a little but not much, at least, to our Mother Earth.
(PS: I had my hair dyed on the day before)

Leo Activities, again: Joint Installation
Congratulate to all those new Leos who's now joining the big family, being officially installed as a Leo.

Yes, sorry to bore you, Leo activities: Service Starts From Home - Care For the Elderly

Being an Emcee for a Vegetarian Food Fair organized by Triple Wisdom Hall.
Beside me is my partner, Dew Lim. She's lovely and pretty, isn't she?

Erhmm, should I classify him as my senior?
He's the one who taught me a lot no matter in Leo or being an Emcee, he's no one else but Kim, I used to call him Uncle Kim, punishment for him calling me after funny and crappy names. *evil laugh*

Spot me!
Yea, this is Malaysian-Chinese culture, we do enjoy holding lanterns on Mid-Autumn Festival, together the celebration goes on with mooncake.
(Reminiscing of the past)

Introducing another pretty and youthful lady, Vivien.
She came along the way from Kuala Lumpur and joined us for the event. ♥

No doubt that's me! We were asked to pose in a funny and creative way.

Attended my bestie's graduation ceremony.
PS: Congratulations!!! And all the best!

Lastly, I fell in love with Bloop de Paris - puff blusher. Especially the youthful pinky tone.
They are adorable and irresistible! Pampering myself with this product.

That's it for this post, probably it's overloaded activities that hold within a month.
What more? It's a superbseptember!


Introducing the song that I'm recently madly in love with.
Just A Dream Cover (Nelly) - Jason Chen & Vincent Joseph

Youtube at here.
Facebook for Jason Chen is right here.

PS: Vincent looks cool in this clip!

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