Give me a break!

Human...we often heard friends around raving and complaining on how busy they are, how much effort they put on something they felt it's worth doing so, and so on. Well, actually, do they hit a pause and think of why are they so into those stuff? What are they busy for? And why are they busying with it? And what are the main purposes of the word 'busying' goes on?

At times, I tend to get my life on the go and working so damn hard to keep myself as busy/hardworking as a bee. And right now, I've come to the point, I try hitting the break pedal, and questioning myself, what do I actually gain from all those activities that I've been busying for? In conclusion, I've been blindly busying for it, whenever an activity ends, I feel proud of achieving and done with it; but do I ever learn something from the particular activity? The answer is so clear where I would never answer a Yes to it. I never look into the activity, or should I say reviewing on the past events, but instead, we tend to carry on and on...until the day where we started to realize what we've been busying for is actually for a Nothing.

That is why the decision has came to my mind, well...don't be surprised, don't be freaked off, yes I'm gonna quit from my part-time job, resigning from the voluntary society that I've been joining, and concentrating purely on my study. The reason behind is, I really need a break! Break! Break, it provides me the rooms for further improvements, it allows me to review myself in enhancing my skills or personality, it gives me the spare time to spend with my family and my dearest, it gives me time to think of what I'm gonna do next. It sounds so wonderful with the word Break, isn't it?

Sounds funny? Not at all.
Well, I know some of you might disagree with my statement above, anyhow, you are welcome to leave any comments.


Jesyca will be right back, after the Break! =)

PS: Have a break, have a Kit-Kat

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Do you worth it?

Hi folks, another casual post from me again. I'm gonna blurt up my thinking about Friends. Well, I am convinced that each and everyone of us does need friends around, and we do enjoy being around with friends, am I right? Remember when we were young, how innocent and how cute of us who used to follow the culture input by the adults - we shake our hands when making friend with another before introducing. Sooner, this culture has been adopted by each of us, and we practice it every single time when we are meeting new friends.

As time flies, we started to learn from our mistakes, absorb the gist or the moral of our stupidity, and we try to avoid repeating the exact mistake again when we were put into the similar shoe. Or in short, our brain has begun to differentiate between true and false, black and white, and good or bad. The quote where we commonly shared among 'don't judge a book by its cover', well, I believe in this and I vow I am putting my best foot forward in implementing it on my routines. Whenever I meet up with someone or should I class him/her as stranger (at the first point), and my brain cells start working already - observation. No doubt, I am pretty sure that I am treating every friends of mine the exact way, no bias. (Probably I might be bias once a while, and sorry for that, no offense)

As a human, we own the ability to think wisely. After mixing with the bunch of friends for quite sometime, we are able to judge and do the classification by our own self, with or without sharing them out. However, in reality....nothing goes as perfect as you wished, things might be out of track, things might turn you down badly. Betraying, accusing, lies, back-stabbing and etc will soon be revealed out, and by the time you found it out, and peeling the lies in between as if layer by layer, it hurts you badly, ain't it? For me, yes, it will. At this point, if accusing has come to the picture, what am I gonna do next? Fight back? Explaining a millions of time? Remain silent? Let it be? Well, I will stick back to my own philosophy, if that particular friend (the accuser) worth it, never mind if I am to explain it either a millions or a thousands of time to make things crystal clear; if vice versa, then I will just remain silent and let it be, because he/she does not worth to be bothered at all!

I set it clear in my mind, I observed before I classify. (Please do not confuse yourself, I do not classify but I am observing when I first met with the new friend, I started classifying after mingle around for a certain period) 'A friend in need is a friend indeed' - means a true friend who comes to your aid when you're in difficulties. There are various types of friend, some are true and sincere friend, some are just exploiting, some are making fool of you, some are just good at crapping around, some are darnly good at 'acting', some are expertise in twisting facts around, some are purely for mixing around and so on... My advice is, be wise! The surface never reveal everything, everything.
PS: So peeps, what is your opinion or your own philosophy in making a friend?

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A letter to Daddy and Mummy

A letter dedicated to my parents. I am deeply sorry for my rebellant behavior.


Dear Daddy and Mummy,

When I was in Diploma
I promised,
I would study hard
I would not disappoint you
And yes, I did it!

Currently
I'm in my Degree Level
Similarly
I promised, again
I will study hard
I will never disappoint you

Daddy never ground me intentionally
Daddy never force me doing things which I don't want to
Daddy never give up on me, not even a second

Mummy's love is always the warmest
Mummy's care never ends
Mummy's heart is pounding for her kids

In Daddy and Mummy's heart, we (already an adult) always stay as a kid no matter how old we are. To them, we, as if we never grown up. They care, they nurture, and they concern us at every single moment. Their worries will never stop. At times, when we go further down, we tend to forget we still have our parents around us. Reflection, again Daddy reminded me of that. I've been putting too much effort on social networking, where I tend to neglected my studies and my family.

Well, my first tear rolled down, for the sake of I deeply love my Daddy and Mummy. When my second tear rolled down, I recalled how bad things turned out when I neglected them, for not accompanying them during the weekends and the only family day which normally falls on the Sunday. My tears burst out after I hugged Daddy for his heart-to-heart talk with me. Thank you for everything. Thank you for reminiscing me for the valued things which I have been holding on my palms - my family, my siblings, and my love.

I love you so!

Always Daddy and Mummy's girl,

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Meaning of Life

Our life, determined by the gasping of air

Our life, is indeed fragile and short
Our life, we manual our destiny
Our life...what is life means?

Eating, Drinking, Playing and Enjoying
Is that what we describe Life after all?
Haven't we done something meaningful?
Turn the angle, you might see life as nothing, nothing

We, everyone is experiencing the Life Cycle
We crawl like a baby
We hang on schooling
We work as if a cow
We nurture our new generation
We spend time touring countries
We wait for the Time to be taken
That's it? The end?

Hectic or Slacking, we choose
Colorful or Dull, we determine
Meaningful or Insignificant, we decide

Somehow, the meaning of Life is yet to be found (to me). I'm sorry for the pathetic post. The idea pops out when I was chatting with my sweetie mummy, and we were so into this topic, we sighed; we joked, and yet we did not conclude our topic well. The question is still exist on my mind, why and what are we living for? And now, you tell me what's yours!

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2010年心的蜕变学佛营 --- 寻找一片天空

Firstly, apologize to my readers.

The details for this post will be fully in mandarin version, for those who find it difficult to understand, I'll elaborate here.

Well, this is a 3-days-2-nights Childrens' Camp for the Year of 2010 (11 to 13/6/2010), organized by Penang Triple Wisdom Hall Sunday School, mostly welcome and encouraged for the the children aged 10 to 12 years old, RM40 per head and it is on first-come-first-served basis (for the first 80 participants only). This camp will be taken place at Penang Buddhist Association (Anson Road).

If you are interested, and you're in!
Please do not hesitate to contact me via e-mail (jesyca_88@hotmail.com) or leave me a comment regarding this camp... or look for us at Facebook!

Act Fast!!
Best before 7/5/2010 before it's due!!!

宗旨 ：灌输基本的佛学知识、提升营员的人格修养、培养营员学习独立的能力，増强自信心。

目的 ：灌输正确的学佛观、灌输优良的道德观、鼓励营员自立与自律。

对象 ：四年级至六年级学生 (10－12岁)

日期 ：11.06.2010 (星期五) 至 13.06. 2010 (星期日)

地点 ：槟城佛学院 (168，Jalan Anson， 10400 Penang)

报到时间 ：8:00 am – 8:30 am (11.06.2010)

离营时间 ：6:30 pm (13.06.2010)

营费 ：RM40.00

名额 ：只限80名

报名表格索取处：三慧讲堂 / 三慧讲堂周日义校

报名截止日期 ：07.05.2010 (星期五) 至额满为止

报名手续 ：填妥报名表格及家长同意书后(确实填妥每一个栏位，字迹工整、清晰)，连同报名费 交至三慧讲堂 / 三慧讲堂周日义校

衣物 ：宽松长裤及有袖t-shirt

自备 ： 1.足够替换的衣服(包括一件蓝色t-shirt)、长裤、棉衣、毛巾、拖鞋、运动鞋、衣架1支衣、夹2个、水罐
2.洗刷用品 (牙刷、牙膏、肥皂)
3.卧具 (枕头、被单、草席或睡袋)

药物 ：请自备个人所需之药物（如有需要）

学员安全 ：主办当局将尽力确保学员的安全，唯不须为任何意外事件负责

询问电话 ：012－429 6762 方绥绒老师 (顾问老师)
04 －226 4975 显圣法师 (筹委会主席)
016－451 5824 许文玉老师 (筹委会秘书)

细 则 ：1. 严禁携带手机、手表、闹钟或任何贵重物品。
2. 主办当局将不负责营员的财物损失。
3. 不可无故缺席，以免浪费学额。凡缺席者，报名费将不会被退还。
4. 参加者报到后，不得随意离开营地，也不得迟到早退。
5. 本简章若有不尽善之处，主办当局有权增删之。

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Don't squeeze me!

fortunate for who we are

being protected, under one roof
a friend in need is a friend indeed
the family shelter will not last forever
the one long lasting might be our sincere friends

hitting the age, exposing to the real and yet cold world
experiences shall be gained throughout times
the ambiance naturally is neither friendly nor cool
the backstabbers are those managed to survive
we are taught and shaped in order to strive for own selves

procrastination disease in studies has knocked me down finally
tomorrow, tomorrow and tomorrow I whispered
endless tomorrow seems to put me right in guilt
different practices amongst has indirectly contributing to obstacles
toleration is the way of how a TEAM is born

"If life gives you lemon, made a lemonade"
true and precise quote indeed, hands on for agreeing
expecting more from the subordinates and yet unwilling to pay extras
demanding, controlling, monitoring and doubting
Hence, I learn, adapt and change the way I used to think

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Shoo Away

stop it, stop bothering where nonsense thoughts are popping up
shoo them all away!
matters are perceived differently, by the intelligence, the thinkers and the criticizers
communication could be the biggest barriers between the groups
variation of culture practices could either be one of them, too
people comes, people goes
the people whom someone might have been waiting for the entire life
is it their Mr. Right or Ms. Right, they kept wondering days and nights
building bond from a stranger into someone important is neither an easy task nor a 1-day-task
'happily forever' has became the dream where everyone after it
those achievers can be numerical counted when 'how many' question arises
defining reality as cruel and bloody is indeed the unchangeable fact
for you and I, we can hardly deny the fact although we hoped it is not
understanding, keeping the pace a step closer could be the efficient step that should be considered
listening are far away more important than merely hearing - "I am hearing but I might not listening"
pounding heart, moving motions, sensitive intuition are all working fine
self-questioning continuously but without a clear outcome
for the reason why the teary heart isn't working fine

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Daddy's Cool

Daddy is always so cool and friendly as if he is playing a role as my friend.
We love teasing around, showing off our own strength to one another and yet
we do quarrel or should I said it as argue over a tiny mini matters.
Well, no doubt saying that Daddy has been pampering me all the times, no matter what I request for, normally he will promise it and put his best foot forward in fulfilling my needs and wants (but certainly, it must be reasonable and not beyond his limitation). This is darn lovely and wonderful, that I couldn't stop myself from sharing it among my friends.

I wonder have you ever heard of this traditionally quote, a daughter was a daddy's wife in their last life. Sounds a little make sense and yet ridiculous?
Well, sometimes I, myself do believe in this quote, too. Why?? This is proven in my family, as at times Mummy will tease daddy and me, saying that we are just like a sweet couple when we're walking side by side.

Daddy has been giving me spaces for privacy and freedom. He does not interfere me anymore (as he used to nag me and giving me tons of reminders) although he knows I'm currently into a relationship with a guy. That's sweet, ain't it?

When the time comes....Daddy starts to fully utilize his powerful and the one and only weapon, guess what? Read this. "This reddish apple must be sweet and juicy, can you cut them into smaller pieces for me?" said Daddy to Mummy. Well, such a cheeky girl like me, I grab the chance and tease him instantly, "Why wouldn't you just give it a bite, oh lazy...." Oh well...here it comes!!! Daddy says,"You love me, don't you? Show it to me then." So....I wont elaborate much here, you should know how I should respond right? Yea..cut the apple into pieces, and serve it right to him. You know what? That's my Daddy, Daddy's cool, ain't it? =)

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A Foe or A Friend?

A Foe or A Friend?

Helping others voluntary, a friend
Backstabbing others consciously, a foe
Should the phenomena goes in such way?
Classifying a person into the groups of 2

Undecidable through looking at the surface
Undetermined after knowing one for years
Unbelievable for the rumors spreading around
Shall we let the cats out of the bag, anyone?

I am...
Standing motionless, staring helplessly
Hoping for a sense of brightness
Pulling me out from the cave of backstabbers
Surviving for the sake of humanity, not cruelty

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Diploma Graduation Ceremony @ G Hotel on 6th March 2010

Shall we let the photos do the speaking?

#1 - Greatest moment of all!

#2 - Seated accordingly for the ceremony

#3 - Mummy and Daddy

#4 - Happy moments are meant to be shared with the loved one
(Thanks for the lovely hand-made chocolate bouquet!) *huggie*

#5 - Leo Club Buddy, Akira

#6 - High School Best Buddy, Ai Phing

#7 - High School Buddy - Cindy Ng

#8 - High School Buddy - Khye Yen

#9 - Buddy, Monkey Daddy and Teng Mummy

#10 - Course mates - Yvonne (center) & Amely (right)

#11 - Head of Business School, Dr. Liew (center) & Amely (left)

#12 - Course mates - (from left to right) Hangen Tan, Yvonne, Fion Lim, Kuen Mun, Jesyca, Lay Fern and Amely

#13 - My College Buddy - Fion Lim

#14 - I am, moving forward towards a brighter future!
All the best, my fellow friends!

Special thanks to PN Lim who photo shoot for the whole ceremony. Dedicating deepest gratefulness to my parents, their hard work has finally paid off, absolutely with the continues supports from my brother as well throughout the 2 years and a half Diploma course. Specially thanks to my dear friends who dropped by to my Convocation ceremony, and their present had made my day became more meaningful!

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Are we still friends?

Well...this question has been playing in my mind for quite some time. Are we still friends?
Being friends, no doubt, friends can be classified into different types and groups. I have been treating *Alice into my Best Friend group, however; at times *Alice treated in a cold way as a return. Wondering why and I could not stop myself from questioning myself why is that so?

I met *Alice in my college, well...such a coincident and thanks to another particular friend where me and *Alice were introduced to each other and somehow became friends before proceeding into the so-called "best friends" group. The age varies definitely did not stop us from building the bonds.

Should I care when *Alice treats me in such a cold way? *Alice did not keep an eye-contact with me anymore even though she used to. What more...she even answered my open-ended question with an answer merely as short as a 'yes' or 'no'. Comparing the the past, *Alice will absolutely having the endless chat with me when I threw her a simple question like 'How are you, dude?'

You know what? I was totally depressed when I knew about it. I hardly convinced myself into believing this cruelty she has just created. Should I be informed what is reason behind the act? Treating her as a friend from the top of my heart...but what do I received as a return? Well...I do care, yes I do! I do not mind if you just ignore me and walk away from my life but please give me a sufficient and convincing reason, at least one of it although it might be just a lame excuse.












I do care, my friend!
All of all is because you're worth to be a best friend!

*Alice - Names changed prior to privacy

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Happy CNY!

Happy Chinese New Year to all of you!

Well, during this CNY, a merely fifteen days' time frame is actually not sufficient for me to enjoy. Most of the leisure time I spent it with my Leo club fellows and my family. In short, we've visited to different places on each of the fifteen days as there were a numbers and different occasions took place at. You might find it out from here, but...not to forget the VVIP (Very Very Important Person), credits to Akira for the nice photo snapping although he was using only an ordinary digital camera instead of a DSLR. *Thumbs up!*

Other than that, please take a look carefully at the picture below. Oh great~ It is a parcel, and it is mailed from Japan, Osaka. Who else? That's my dearest host-sister, Satsuki. I was on cloud nine upon receiving the gift from her. *Huggies*

The parcel box was filled with Japanese tidbits and a Hello Kitty wishing card.

Time really flies. We are going to bid farewell to Mr. February and welcome Ms. March. Don't it sounds cruel? *sobbing* In another 3 weeks' time, I have to prepare and transform the total workaholic of me into a dummy student. Anyhow, best of luck on whatever thingy I'm doing on. And of course, same goes to the folks! =) Cheers!

Promising that I will, update more and more up-coming activities and my thoughts. My instinct is back on track! *Woo-hoo, the blog is successfully activated*

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Kiloid

People are weird, at times, we are looking at every single and tiny stuff into something perfectionist; at times, we will not be bothered about perfectionist anymore as we used to quote 'life is extremely short and who cares?' Hence, how about an evil-looking left-over huge scar right on your arm, will you be bothered by it?


Scar and kiloid is different. As generally, keloid is a greatly enlarged scar that projects above the skin surface. The skin heals by formation of scar tissue, which at first is often red and somewhat prominent. As the months pass, a scar usually becomes flat. Unfortunately, sometimes scars enlarge to form firm, smooth, hard growths called kiloid. From the source of this website, you can easily having a clearer picture of the difference between the two of them.

Life is tough when passers-by are looking strangely at you as if you are such an abnormal kid. For someone like me who is slightly sensitive towards the way they look at me, uncomfortable is the only word I could ever described. Oh gosh! How pathetic it would be, by envying those youthful girls whose skin are fair, even and smooth, wearing sleeveless and lovely dress hanging out around with folks.

"Come on! Don't get distracted over such a small matter, tell me who doesn't has a scar either?", my friends urged me. However, that is why I was saying that human is extremely strange. At times, when my guts are back with me, I went outings with a spaghetti straps; and yet at times, I would just hide my kiloid off as if I do not own 1 neither.

Solutions and treatments are provided over the Internet such as surgical excision or injection and the cost is neither affordable. However, skin types play an important during the recovering period, too.

I am still, searching for my guts and courage. If I were to be successful, I will make a change-over on my style of dressing, definitely I bet I will!

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