On Vacation

Currently on my vacation, I'm now in Kuala Terenggannu.
Will be posting more and more pictures soon.
Sharing 1 of the pictures of my shooting which taken on last Saturday.
Stay tuned~ for more..




















Jes

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Experiencing a new Jes

Thank you, thank you and thank you! =)
Repeating to be grateful to those photographers who are currently has became friends of mine, had brought me back my confidence, I'm using "Appreciate" this only word to describe how I felt.
Gaining a new kind of experience, starting up a new episode of life and having a satisfactory sensation are all what I get from the shooting. Frankly speaking, I did enjoy it deeply and was feeling extremely great! (I hoped I did a great job as well)

Spending almost three quarter of my day in Gurney, as I'm the lucky one who get picked by a friend who is currently pursuing her make-up beauty course, being her make-up model in order to complete her last assignment in her examination. We tried out different style of "Fantasy look", and finally caught an inspiration. And ending up I will be looking really W.I.L.D., you are trying to imagine it now, aren't you? I count on her that she is able to do it extremely well during the day of examination. Best of luck to you, my dear.

Half an hour more to 2 A.M. in the morning, and my heavy eye lids are chasing me to bed right now. I'm halfway torn out for these 2 days, good news that I'm on my way getting my vacation, soon. Looking forward for it excitingly. Good Night, everyone!

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Sorry, my dear friends =)

As I mentioned in my previous post, I am now enjoying a period of 3 weeks semester break. Failing to grab myself a part time job, instead, I end up hanging out with my bestie and fellow friends which currently seems to be making myself being occupied with outdoors. I had lot of activities done with my fellow friends for the past 1 week and a half. For instance, hiking, badminton match, jogging, movies, and window shopping. Furthermore, I went to one of the famous colleges in Penang to enquire details regarding the degree program they offered. But still, I'm in doubt of where to further my postgraduate. Looking for scholarships is one of my considerations in it as well.

My dear friend, time is precious and limited, hence, appreciate and fully utilize it. Feeling strange for why I am saying so? No doubt, let's figure out an answer towards your curiosity. A day ago, 2 of my friends started to complain to me saying that whenever there's an outings or function, they have to inform me at least 1 week in advance. They were saying the exactly similar idea though they do not know each other. Ha-ha! "You seems to be very busy and I can hardly hang out with you, so I decided to date you out on next week. By giving you 1 week in advance, bet you will have no more excuses for not turning up. *winks*", said the 2 of them.
What more could I say? "Ha-ha! I'm not as busy as what you said, perhaps, blame it on the wrong timing. *weehee*", I answered.

By the way, I need to apologize sincerely to few of my friends whom I rejected or unable to turn myself up for the invitation. Currently preparing myself for an event for this coming Saturday, and it's gonna be my day! (Clarifying that it's neither a wedding nor a birthday party)
Do keep in touch, buddy! I can be reached at anytime by just giving my a ring but promise it's not in the wee hours. *winks*


Jes

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If This Isn't Love - Contrary

Dear A....
Today is a blue Monday.
From the view of mine, everything I saw was in blue.
Wondering will someone after me?
Or should we try to view it 180 degree overturned? I always ask....
"Do you realize I am the one who is walking on your shadow? Bet you never will."

Dear B....
You used to remind me that the sun is always shines where the sky is blue.
You did cheer me up in every second and every minute.
I deeply appreciate it though I might disappoint you. You always say....
"Willing to stay by your side, sacrificing my time made me feel worth it."


Jes

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Tagged - 10 Random Facts About Me

Thanks to Nathary and Panharath for the tag. (I have to start scratching my head, and knowing more about me myself, now.) Below are the 10 random facts about me.

1. Absent minded
Not to say about reading a book, but memorizing facts for my examination or test, I always get myself messed up with all those information which previously 'installed' perfectly in my brain. Guess what? I have been trying to use mind-mapping for the solution. And hopefully, I can get over with it now.

2. Hating liars
If telling a lie is one of the practice you used to have, get it off right now! I mean it! I loathe liars who managed to telling lie around and yet, they still return you with a "smile", treating as nothing is big deal about speaking falsely. Wondering are they able to sleep tight or getting nightmares every night, afraid of their lies will be exposed, in the future??

3. Blogging
Realizing that myself be fond of blogging nowadays. Reading others' blog is a way to enhance myself, my language, my thought, at the mean time, collecting and storing new vocabulary into my vocab-pocket. As what I used to say, "Blog is a way to express." Blogging, allows someone especially those belongs to the type of introvert to speak up their mind, to express their blues and joys, and sharing the moment of joyful and tearful virtually. (There is always TIME boundary of which we can hardly attend every functions, hence, we can be shared it through our blog.)

4. I'm a Saggi
I was born in the month of December, as everyone knows, it's the month of Sagittarius. According to various horoscope-fortune-telling, they describe Saggi as someone who is flirtatious, unfaithful, and fell in love easily with anonymous. However, I strongly believe that I am a person who is kinda loyal, I can sometimes be flirtatious to those friends of whom I have befriended for years, or in other words, my bestie. Admitting that I am a person who is easily to like someone (means having a strong, and weird feeling towards someone such as wanting to know more about that particular person), but...but...BUT never ever categorized me in the group of "falling in love".

5. In love with Korea!
Korea culture, Korea language, Korean Drama, Korean dishes and etc are all my favourite. What can be concluded is, "I love Korea!". No doubt, I will fill up my free time by watching Korean Drama and starting to learn about the language and the culture practised by the Korean. What more about travelling? Definitely I'll be voting Korea as one of my favourite vacation to-go-list.

6. Cool VS Friendly
My impression to everyone. Trust me, each and everytime when I receive feed backs on my first impression from my friends, they will be saying "Hey! Why were you looking so down and cool on our first met?". In fact, I'm neither trying to be looking cool nor not into the mood. That probably is because when I was thrown into a new environment where I have to start everything from scratch (from ice-breaking, getting to know new friends to mixing around), I prefer to stay quiet and observing the others until I am motivated by the others, only the words will be uttered out from my golden-sealed-mouth. Perhaps, during the whole process, I am being really cool. Discovering it by yourself and I bet you will be surprised after knowing me for a certain period - a friendly me.

7. Able to read basic body language
Believe it or not, what is playing on a person's mind can be shown out through his/her body language. In other words, body languages speaks one's mind. I'm not bragging as I am able to read one's body language. Having the ability of reading one's wants or needs is one of the reason why I am proud of myself.

8. Dress code
I used to stick to simple and nice in dressing up myself. Fancy earrings, necklaces and bracelets are not something I'm very particular with, including make-up. Probably it ends up making me looks like someone who is unfashionable.

9. Loving English
As a Malaysian, I'm proud of myself of the ability of speaking the language of English, Mandarin, Malays and other dialects such as Hokkien, Cantonese and Hainan. However, among these languages, I prefer in exposing myself more to English. Although I noted that my English is not as good as some of my friends, but I'm willing to learn and improve it. I promise!

10. Finishing the game, now!!
Couldn't believe my eyes that I'm about to finish the game. Hopefully you enjoy reading it. =)

Tagging few of my friends as below:
1. WenJun 2. Amely 3. LinCheong 4. Papercut 5. SueAnne
6. Zack 7. KenJoo 8. FionLim 9. NelsonTeh 10. Angeline


Jes

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Confession

It has been a long period since we stay apart. Few questions have been playing nakedly in my mind for months.

"Will You blame me for what I did?"
"Did I make a wise choice after all?"
"What is the actual reason which lies beneath in You?"

If You feel like confess to me, please do so, and go ahead as I ever wish you can.
Those people who desire to see you to turn into a new leaf are either me, Your family or Your close friends, and we really mean it. If my writing seems to no evil, forget about everything, then.
I attempted in seeking for a reason to forgive You, however, can you make sense over it?

A friend asked: "Have you had a sense of regretting? Still in the mood for the relationship?"
I'm losing my mind for searching for the exact answer. The questions which thrown by my friend has caused my mood turned upside down. I consoled and stopped myself from an over-thought, and it helps, perhaps??

Jes

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I'm back!

I'm back, after getting through a difficult, tough semester I ever had.
A complex and yet released feeling are struggling in my deepest heart. I'm happy because my exam is finally over; however, I'm depressed as worrying over how will my results looks like on the 10th August. Com'on, feel the atmosphere of FREEDOM like nobody else do, and fully utilize my 3 weeks of semester break by doing something I have been wishing and wanting!

Throughout the whole semester (which is approximately 16 weeks), I had been loaded with mountainous of assignments, tests, presentations and EXAM! Stressed, Insomnia and lost appetite are all the symptoms which came knocking at my health door one after one. Fortunately, I'm glad and pleased to be informed that my hard work of assignments has actually paid off handsomely. Hopefully it works out the same way in my exam. Sigh...

Jes

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C.H.E.E.R.

Being a good cheer means be happy, or in other words, laughing out loudly.
I used to type out this word C.H.E.E.R.S. However, how it actually shows its effectiveness and cheer me up? I recalled, a friend of mine who once read my blog, She said :"The way you express and the writing of your blog makes me feel cold and blue. Are you alright?" Yeah, I'm doing fine, and i'm trying not letting myself down and sorrow. And yet, blog is the best way for me to express, I told her.

Half an hour ago, another friend asked:"Disappointed? But why?" I was stunned at that moment. Firstly, I do not know from where and when should I start telling Him all the puzzle which was playing on my mind. Secondly, it was months ago since my last chat with that particular friend. Hence, it shocked me when He offered me by lending me a hand in good time. Well, He said this to me, which sounds meaningful and I should refer to it as a brand new chapter of Life. "Trust, based on how you judge the other. Listen to your heart, and start feeling it. When you are ready on trusting him/her, go ahead with no doubt."
Perhaps, I should learn on forgetting the past at times. Oops, it is a MUST instead of SHOULD.

Sorry and forgive me for unable to stay by your side for the time being. I'm tired, exhausted, and enervated. Frankly speaking, I'm starting to lose my interest on knowing any further news related to you. I might forgive, but those lies which carved by you slash by slash is unforgettable.

Hey Sunshine, I'm on my way!!


Jes

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A Public Speaker

As a public speaker.
Being required by someone who is either your superior, your lecturer, or the unknown to speak up is not an odd thing today. Commonly, it is known as impromptu. Impromptu, is an activity of which a question is randomly thrown to you by the speaker. In no time, you have to stand on your feet and say what you want to say, the way you want to say it. And, right or wrong, people form a perception of who we are and what we represent by the confidence that we show when we speak. (The Leader's Institute 2001)

As a subordinate, you are expected to speak up on behalf of representing the organization. There is no other ways of which you think you might be able to escape from it. For instance, you, as a representative of your firm, are required to deal a business with another firm? Or undergo a negotiation? Hence, presentation is necessary.

As a student, still, we have to undergo the similar process or activity done by the others. Spending off 2 years and a half in order to obtain a Diploma certificate, there is no such thing available known as "short-cut" or "express way". In fact, we must go through mountainous of mid-term test, examination, coursework and the most importantly - a presentation of our results and findings of our assignment. In college or university, is a commencement to well-prepared ourselves, and in addition, learn as much as you can or in another words, absorb as much knowledge as you can just like a superb sponge. Through listening and observing the other presenter, is the best way to learn and enhance the way of our presentation and absolutely, obtaining a useful and powerful skills.

Realizing that either impromptu, public speaking or presentation is getting more and more important nowadays, I should put my best foot forward in mastering the at-least basic skills.

Setting up my new goal, which is a step forward from others - Be a successful and attractive Public Speaker!

Jes

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A Different Point of View

Thought.
Every one has their different point of view.
Some of you viewed a relationship seriously, some don't.
Did someone call you after "dear", "my lady" or "my angel" before?
I'm sure you do have some closed friends, or even your spouse or boyfriend/girlfriend will do so.
Question! What about a friend whom you knew only few days ago? And he/she started calling you after "dear" and etc? What kind of thought will be in your mind by the way? Or should i mean, what is your first impression for this girl/guy?
Isn't this sounds flirtation? Or will you think this is a normal act for calling everyone after "dear"?
Everyone has their special and unique ways of thought.

P.S. :Do not ever assume that everyone is thinking the same way as you are. Spend a period of time, and try to get to know your friends well.

By Jes

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although i'm exhausted but i do enjoyed ^^

woohoo~ finally!
i'm extremely tired and exhausted now, i need a break seriously.
reaching home with backbone ache, a pair of panda eyes, painful legs but i brought a back meaningful stuff - friendship and a huge, lovely family who managed to live under one roof.
actually, i went to a youth camp, and i joined them as a voluntary.
i met lots of friends, they are all talented and strong in different fields, too many knowledge and experiences that i can and have to learn from them. A 4 days and 3 nights camp is kinda fun, lovely, caring, meaningful and yet tiring.
i love the environment in which everyone always carries a smile on their face, the courteous way of speaking, how the discipline being carried out and the creative yet meaningful games.
having the opportunity to experienced all these, i hereby need to express my appreciation to khai tzong(i spell it correctly!), without him informing me about the camp, probably i would be doing something else during the days where i spent in the camp.
last but not least, i need to thank our dear leader, hui ri, he did a great job during the camp though there were few negative feed backs which i viewed them unimportantly but as a positive encouragement for a better enhancement of our group service. you're great man!
it's time for bye-byes. =)

By Jes

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Silence, makes everything goes perfect!

Have you ever in a dilemma whether you should speak up more or just remain silence?
I personally feel that, remaining silent is either a better choice or the best choice in solving argument, differ point of view and etc.
When i sense the "no-no" signal sent indirectly from another party while we were having a normal conversation, i, will prefer to remain silent. In my point of view, it is a way to avoid quarrel or misunderstanding.
when I sensed something is wrong,
when I am not into the mood for responding,
when I am sick of someone who threw me those silly and ridiculous questions, and
when my request is rejected due to some unacceptable reasons and bla bla bla
I will stop uttering words out and zip-up my mouth!
And until today, I still find this method useful as we will be meeting different kind of human being as we grow.
By showing off my poker face and keeping myself in silence, are you able to read what is running in my mind? =)

By Jes

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17 again

After watching the movie "17 again", this crazy question has been hunting me since i stepped out from the cinema. What changes would you make if you are in 17 again? I threw this silly question to some of my friends as our chit-chat topic. 1 of them doesn't want to make a change if they have a chance to, saying a no-no to examination was another answer given by another friend. If i were given a second-17-again, guess what I wish to make a change? Well, should I choose to putting more effort on my study? Should i pursue to form 6 and not ending up in the college like what i'm doing currently? Do everyone deserves a second chance of getting back to 17 again?
Well, nothing much should be questioned, must we concentrate on the future and not about the past. =D Life's short, appreciate every second that we had.

PS: Yeah! A new victory for me, I've completed another mission-impossible. Here I am, level 5-MoonGate in Youth-Park. (But felt sorry to Kai Tzong, he waited me approximately half an hour in the car. Reason?? I prefer to keep it to myself Haha)















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open up your mind

Today i went to the biggest shopping mall in Penang, Queensbay Mall for a window shopping. First of all, i promised myself that i'm not going to buy anything for myself. However, guess what? I ended up carrying 2 huge plastic bag home with me. Ladies, i think this act is understandable, isn't it? Girls=Shopaholic Haha!
I pampered myself a lip balm, from The Face Shop, Plus+1 Shea Butter. The product was recommended by the salesperson, and i wished i had a right pick as it costs me RM19.80 which sounds reasonable to me.
Borders, which is a place where i will not get bored even though i spent hours there reading up. I nearly fell in love with the relaxing environment and the coffee aroma. Imagine how good it is when you spend your free time reading with a cup of hot Americano coffee. Ouch!!
I intended to look for some self-enrichment or psychology books but unfortunately i hardly get 1 for myself. Friends, any recommendation?
I managed to grab myself a Women's Weekly magazine before coming out from the bookstore.
*Take 3 deep breathe, and start thinking of what achievement you want in life*
That's what i gain from my reading today. =)

By Jes

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stranger

i have been using "stranger" as my display name in MSN messenger 2 days ago. and yet, i have been repeating again and again explaining what does it mean, to some of my friends who asked me "hey, stranger! why are you using stranger as your display name?"
and well, when i'm not into the mood, i will just reply with "haha! just for the sake of fun!!"; however, to some of my bestie, i will try to explain to them what does stranger actually meant to me.
in a sudden,an idea popped up on my mind. yah, i'm going to blog using stranger as a new post title.
stranger, which is a simple word which carries the meaning of the unknown, someone who seems unfamiliar to us.
however, stranger, carries a vary meaning to me. "stranger", in other words, describing someone whom i knew very well and were very close to, but now turned out to be someone who seems extremely strange to me.
and now, we never shared the happiness and sadness like we used to have, never talked to each other although we were standing face-to-face, never smiled at each other again, never greet each other anymore
does "stranger" means a differ to you as well?
by the way, we should let bygones be bygones. the gist of it is, i know i'm not alone. =)

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durian fest on 240509

fu-yoh!!! as we had been busying for wesak day preparation, so, there comes an opportunity for us to enjoy the yummy durian in balik pulau. =D
there were a total number of 68 members who joined the durian fest yesterday. a friend of mine, who is a friendly and kind-hearted guy, gave us a ride to the destination. *thanks buddy!* however, i guess the driver is friendly but not the car, of which i knocked my head twice on the window. lol
there were 6 of us sitting in a car, i still remembered the car plat number, P?? 7976 if i'm not mistaken.
PS: move away if you see this car! lol...
he drove madly yet fun...speedy! a new kind of experience that i have never ever tried before! (i was like sitting in Jay's Initial-D car, serious!!) i was shocked at first but slowly i get used to it. =) we had fun and jokes along the way.






this picture was captured while we were enjoying our yummy durian. starting from the left is yuan jie, xi liang, me, wei zhen, kai tzong and our shifu. i have never been to balik pulau before. i love the nature environment. and i can describe it as a kampung style. relaxing.....

















a closer touch with the nature













fortunately, i'm able to snap the scenery over there =D













a group of buddy

















this is the mini water-fall















have you seen the flesh of a durian?












before going back, we went to tropical fruit farm which located in teluk bahang, and i tried this so-called famous ice-kacang, hmm... tasted not bad =)

i enjoyed the outing so much although it was a tiring one. i tried out variety types of durian, a bitter one, a sweet one and etc.
what are you waiting for?? you should give them a try although it has a strong fragrance!! =D

Jesyca

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the view

today after having our class, me and my classmates went out for a movie. we watched "night at the museum 2". it was a nice show tough, i enjoyed the joke in the movie so much. after all, my friend dropped us at college after the show. the minute before i drive my way back home, i felt like wanting to go to the beach. so, there comes the picture that i've attached here. i felt totally relaxing when i came to the beach, hence, i simply snap a few pictures as i felt it would be best to describe my feeling now! yeah! you got it right!! it's loneliness. in other words, you can describe it as cold and blue, very down and full of disappointment and heart broken! i might be bleeding inside although i looked quite optimistic all the time. i wonder how should i re-act especially in front of you, in front of the people who cared so much for me, in front of my friends, in front of my family. should i always smile all the time? or should i expressed out everything whatever i had on my mind? some friends advised me to take it easy, yah, i knew it seems much easier to speak than act.

when i was at the beach, i started to think about the past. those either sweet or unpleasant memories that we used to had together. it might sounds a lil' weird why i'm still thinking of him although i knew that i shouldn't since the day where trust and honesty no longer exist in our relationship. as you can see in the pic, footprints are left behind after our journey had started. some leftovers are a lovely one, some are wonderful, some are pain-killing, some are remarkable, some are unforgettable. what about my leftovers to you??? are they still with you?


time will heal me, perhaps! when only can i get recovered? i'm sorry, anti-biotic isn't works to me even though you use it overdosed. sigh..... by the way, i'll always make myself happy...

thanks for reading...

By Jes

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some action must be taken

today it really drives me crazzy!!!
since this sem commenced until now,
it's already week 8 now.
i shouldn't behave in such way of attitude towards my study
i should have been pouring more effort on it
today when i got my test results,
it shocked me.... i was stunned and my brain was malfunctioned
and i knew i have not been putting much time on my study
i regret of wasting my precious time by online, chats, facebook, and many more
it's time to awake!!!
i'm guilty of what i did since the semester started until now...
a friend told me that i might be distracted by some upset incident
i guess i am.
but come on! this is my study, my future...
i shouldn't behave like this just because of the TINY incident
it's time!!! for me to wake up and start preparing myself for this coming exam
starting to hate myself for having such an irritating behavior!!!

Jes

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i should be happy right now but i'm not

last wed,
i went for a gathering with my secondary mates in Northem Beach
it was a nice place to dine in, there are lots of variety, delicious food but more expensive if compared to the others.... we had our dinner, chat and photo taking
feeling down 'coz some of my friends (from tarc) will be going to kampar and KL to further their study in no time.
we can hardly meet and hang out with each other in future.



another gathering was held on last fri, 10 of us which are class mates during f4 and f5,
we went to coffee island, which i found is another relaxing place but please do try the specially made soda drink.
although i had lot of fun hanging out with my friends.
however, after returning home....
i had a strange feeling deep inside my heart, which i couldn't describe it out with words
is it lonely?? i have no idea!!! i need someone badly... someone whom i can share my everything with, someone whom i can talk to, someone whom i can cry to, someone whom are willing to let me lean against on his/her shoulder....
i know all of my friends, my family are always by my side, supporting me...
i thought i'm able to overcome the obstacles that i've been facing,
unfortunately, i failed!!! sometimes, those memories keep flashing back on my mind...
what shall i do?? this is torturing me!!!

Jesyca

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blog on valentine, happy or sad?

a post in my blog on valentine's day.
make a guess,
whether i'm happy or sad now??
what i'd like to say is i'm sorry, dear
besides sorry, i have no idea which word would be best picked to describe the feeling or the word that i wanna tell u.
sorry for everything.

Jesyca

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